*sigh*
ok... i have made a few decisions in my life... and none of them are going to be easy to follow thru with.. but they are things that need to be done. In one of my posts a while ago.. well..a few days ago.. i said something that i truly regret... well.. i said alot of things i regret.. such as i didn't want a kid.. or a family.. and i was done with love and i wanted to move back to Vegas.. and begin again the life i was once so deeply involved in... and i don't.. i want a Wife.. and a son... well, i already have one of thos, but mine.. i want MY son.. and then there will be another daughter.. so i will have a Wife and 3 kids.. and i can't wait...i want the house with the big yards so i can have the dogs i want... *cries* i even want the damned picket fence that goes all the way around.. and a porch and a swingset in the back yard.... i don't want to give thos dreams up... ever... another thing i said was that i wasn't going to hide my temper anymore... and it was just going to erupt.. we, that to i regret, becos if i did that i would be doing what i did in Vegas. There is only 1 reason that i am not completely deleteing my past posts.. and that is to remind me and help me to not make thos mistakes again.
On another note.. because im trying not to be depressed today.. and its the day before my b-day... I have a feeling that i am going to be kidnapped tonight.. and that my friend next door has something to do with it.. she (Shay) and her best friend darkkitty_23 (Day) went shopping yesterday to get a present for me.. and im scared... cos i know where they went and i don't know if i should run to them for it.. or away from them o.0 i know it was pricely and im irritated they spent that much... it took both of them to buy it.. and it almost broke them for the day... and thats not kewl...so i will have to pay them back *evil grin* they know i care about them both VERY much... so i can't let this slide with out a bit of a thankyou...*rubs hands together in anticipation* MUAH HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!...o...sorry...minor out-burst... i think i'll just stick with my evil grin..........ok, i think im done for now... before i say to much of my lil plan...i have to go and get ready for todays Game... i guess im running and a friend of mine who i haven't been able to hang out with in a LONG TIME.. i haven't Gamed with Mikey in almost a year... is comeing down for my game today YIPPEE!!! so..bye4now... Smurf ya Later... wish me luck on my Day and Shay adventure...
On another note.. because im trying not to be depressed today.. and its the day before my b-day... I have a feeling that i am going to be kidnapped tonight.. and that my friend next door has something to do with it.. she (Shay) and her best friend darkkitty_23 (Day) went shopping yesterday to get a present for me.. and im scared... cos i know where they went and i don't know if i should run to them for it.. or away from them o.0 i know it was pricely and im irritated they spent that much... it took both of them to buy it.. and it almost broke them for the day... and thats not kewl...so i will have to pay them back *evil grin* they know i care about them both VERY much... so i can't let this slide with out a bit of a thankyou...*rubs hands together in anticipation* MUAH HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!...o...sorry...minor out-burst... i think i'll just stick with my evil grin..........ok, i think im done for now... before i say to much of my lil plan...i have to go and get ready for todays Game... i guess im running and a friend of mine who i haven't been able to hang out with in a LONG TIME.. i haven't Gamed with Mikey in almost a year... is comeing down for my game today YIPPEE!!! so..bye4now... Smurf ya Later... wish me luck on my Day and Shay adventure...