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i wrote these the other night... i rememeber some of them but i had taken pain meds.. so i really don't remember writing alot of the parts of them., none of them have titles yet...damn... i need to write on meds more often...
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I have come a long way where I started from
but I'm still not even close to where I'm going
(and now) I can no longer see the shine
that has been lighting up my way
I cannot feel its glowing.......
The fire in my heart is dying
and the zeal I had is gone
This path that I've chosen's a rocky one
Long, hard and frozen it has become
Each turn that I've taken on the way
has only led me back to Hell
I am dying down growing weaker now
It could seem that I'm doing fine
but I'm broken to little pieces deep inside
Why did I ever choose to go this way
The question I keep asking myself all the time
The fire in my eyes is dying
and the dream I had is gone
Darling, do you feel, there is a storm coming our way
The burning light between us is already starting to fade
The fire in our hearts is smothered by the rain
and the crimson flame of passion turns into something gray.....
And with each drop of blood our shattered hearts ever bleed
something so precious dies and is lost eternally....
Each teardrop from your eyes
makes something inside me die
Each of these days that draws us part
takes a piece from my heart......
kill me again with your love
and chase the storm away.......
bring me the end with your love
and haunt the demons away......
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...The night cries taking this pain
Murmuring deliriums to the wind
I feel the tears in the silence
Spilling among my hands
As grains of sand
The shine of the sun
In her light eyes
In the silence I kept her good-bye
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Still, no-one else I ever want to be...
and no-one else I intend to be...
'cause no-one else I was meant to be
I need, I want, I long for my retribution...
I need, I want, I yearn for my retribution...
I want my retribution...
why should we be alone
when we love...
Shall I die... shall I die to be free
when I cry... when I cry in silence...
so please let me die in silence...
oh my god, let me die in silence....
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While stars outspread the night-time watch
and wind through darkened treetops swirl;
I slowly bow my frozen features
in grief, in sadness and in woe...
In solitude.
Cold and desolate my soul turns grey,
alone I witness the neverending day...
My wasted dreams lie silent and dead
within this darkened tears I shed...
So lonely I stand on this tortured cliff
hearing distant cosmic echoes calling;
beckons me to decline this withered beauty
and leave this lie to greet the night...
the night without an end...
The solitude...
No voice, no hand of human source
can reach me in this place...
though fallen figures closely passes
and invites me into somber dance...
In solitude forever....
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I have come a long way where I started from
but I'm still not even close to where I'm going
(and now) I can no longer see the shine
that has been lighting up my way
I cannot feel its glowing.......
The fire in my heart is dying
and the zeal I had is gone
This path that I've chosen's a rocky one
Long, hard and frozen it has become
Each turn that I've taken on the way
has only led me back to Hell
I am dying down growing weaker now
It could seem that I'm doing fine
but I'm broken to little pieces deep inside
Why did I ever choose to go this way
The question I keep asking myself all the time
The fire in my eyes is dying
and the dream I had is gone
Darling, do you feel, there is a storm coming our way
The burning light between us is already starting to fade
The fire in our hearts is smothered by the rain
and the crimson flame of passion turns into something gray.....
And with each drop of blood our shattered hearts ever bleed
something so precious dies and is lost eternally....
Each teardrop from your eyes
makes something inside me die
Each of these days that draws us part
takes a piece from my heart......
kill me again with your love
and chase the storm away.......
bring me the end with your love
and haunt the demons away......
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
...The night cries taking this pain
Murmuring deliriums to the wind
I feel the tears in the silence
Spilling among my hands
As grains of sand
The shine of the sun
In her light eyes
In the silence I kept her good-bye
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Still, no-one else I ever want to be...
and no-one else I intend to be...
'cause no-one else I was meant to be
I need, I want, I long for my retribution...
I need, I want, I yearn for my retribution...
I want my retribution...
why should we be alone
when we love...
Shall I die... shall I die to be free
when I cry... when I cry in silence...
so please let me die in silence...
oh my god, let me die in silence....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
While stars outspread the night-time watch
and wind through darkened treetops swirl;
I slowly bow my frozen features
in grief, in sadness and in woe...
In solitude.
Cold and desolate my soul turns grey,
alone I witness the neverending day...
My wasted dreams lie silent and dead
within this darkened tears I shed...
So lonely I stand on this tortured cliff
hearing distant cosmic echoes calling;
beckons me to decline this withered beauty
and leave this lie to greet the night...
the night without an end...
The solitude...
No voice, no hand of human source
can reach me in this place...
though fallen figures closely passes
and invites me into somber dance...
In solitude forever....