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I'm enraptured with thought of you, both good and bad. You permeate through everything in my life. You lead me on and let me down. You've showed me a level of jubilation I once thought non-existent. Perhaps despair and love compliment one another...I still have lingering notions that you aren't honest with me, that you've fucked around countless times and just don't tell me. But then some of the things you say to me erase all my worries...but i checked my old phone: "I'll never cheat on you, i havent and i've never been tempted to. I can't imagine doing that with the way I feel about you." Dated November 9th. Ouch. But I love you endlessly nonetheless. You will either make me or destroy me.