i'm remembering my decade in men. crushes, more specifically... celebrity crushes. ;) i'm curious what this says about me. ben is laying in bed next to me while i write this. he'll probably look over any second and laugh at me, but it's ok.

1999-2001ish - brian littrell

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i admit it, i'm a little bummed that the WB as we know it is kaput. i watched a lot of the finale tonight. well, listened at any rate, as i worked. it's like saying goodbye, once and for all, to being a girl. these are the shows i watched through college and then for the five years after graduation when i lived in d.c. they got me through, in ( Read more... )

so, remember those pre-LJ days? somehow, i think i was less confused and less fucked up before i started this thing. that doesn't make a whole lot of sense, as writing about stuff and making friends and everything associated with LJ should make life better. i really shouldn't put it that way, though, because my life is certainly better for ( Read more... )

there are times when you feel like you can take on the world, that anything's possible. there are other times when you feel like you'll never accomplish even one of your goals, that utter failure is inevitable ( Read more... )

it's yom kippur next week, the day of atonement. i need to apologize to all those i hurt this past year, whether maliciously, unknowingly, or even with the best of intentions. i hope you all can forgive me. i'm truly sorry for everything i did.

i plan to make some changes in the year 5766. please, don't give up on me.

i need to be singing. i miss it so much it's like a constant weight in my chest. why is it so hard to find a group, any group? i live in new york freakin city and you're telling me i can't find one a cappella group that's auditioning? or a rock band...that would be amazing. i've always said that it's a dream of mine to front a rock band, but ( Read more... )

i couldn't make it through the whole thing...i just couldn't. my heart is too full and the combination of "ain't no sunshine", "hand in hand", and "crazy beautiful" was too much. i didn't want to start bawling right there on the couch, so turned off the tv and came back in here to try and get some of it out. before the lump in my throat gets so ( Read more... )

god, i can't take any more...i'm gonna go watch ual...they need a smiley for when your heart and mind are too full to function, "pensive" was as close as i could get.