Zen.
hmmmm YAY! I quit my morning job today. I feel like a free bird about to fly the fuck away. I am so glad that I did this. Also, it will make it so much easier to lose the rest of my weight. I am not talking to Josh anymore, Im not really gonna get into it but basically I realized if I want to achieve 'zen' I basically just can not have drama or stress in my life, so instead of making a bunch of excuses about our relationship or gettin pissed about shit, I decided to 'let it go.' I started those patches today that ive had forever and have put off using. I figure its the best time right now to get hardcore again and start workin out 5 days a week again and also try to eat well. Ive been a beastor, and I have gained a little weight. Not much, I think I can lose it all and be better than ever within two weeks, so Im not skurred. I know I can do it, I know I will work hard October and November and it will really pay off. hooray! I just wanted to throw some updates in here. I am feeling hopeful. I am looking forward to not being as stressed out, I already feel weight lifted from my shoulders. =D