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i gotta figure out wtf im doing with MY LIFFFFFFFe i feel like at least tonite my life is starring at facebook hoping someone will ask me to hang out. wtf is wrong with me? when did i become to fucking boring? ugh. its nice like this that makes me wanna just get into a relationship for the wrong reasons. mainly to fill my time, make me not bored anymore. I know im doing well, I know i just gonna keep on going and ill be good. im not necessarily miserable right now, i just kinda feel alone, lonely, maybe a tiny bit un wanted in general cause i feel like i have no one to hang out with. kinda sounds pathetic but its the truth. me being kind of elusive all summer is finally coming to bite me in the ass. i now find myself wanting to be more social but i just kinda lost ties with a lot of people, im a little different now but i dont have a new group of friends. im i destined to be a loner forever? UGH ........ well i know at least i love myself, and that i keep learning and growing. im trying to just stay positive, this is a sensitive time of year, as it gets colder and colder i feel like i am more susceptible to being depressed and feeling absolutely secluded to the world......... im alright tho. i hit my goal weight this morning. i guess i thought at 150 i'd be skinny but i guess from being all stretched out for so long and my boobs being lighter, i still have a little belly. so my new goal i think is 140, but its mainly to work hard and tighten my abs so i can get rid of the squishyness =p lolzzzzzzzz BYE