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I decided to push Josh away a little for my sanity. I was feeling better last night and a lot better today. I am being productive. I also heard some shit about Josh that makes him seem like a shady motherfucker. Which gives me a little fuel for my fire, instead of just thinking about how I don't wanna have feelings for him. Its not even the feelings that are the worst part, its that at the end of the day he is Kittie's boyfriend and that he doesn't want ME . Its cool yo. I think a little break from him while I get back to the gym and everything will put my head on straight again. I've just been kind of weird lately I think some good workin out will level my brain chemicals haha. I do wanna be friends with him, but if he is gonna be doing shady shit I don't wanna have anything to do with him cause that is RIDICULOUS. But yeah, I am doin much better now. I'm just gonna try to not make it apparent to him that I am avoiding him. Which I feel like won't be too hard since the only time we can really hang out is the weekends, and its easy to make excuses that I am busy on the weekends. It'll all be good.