IN REFLECTION... IN RAINBOWS...
"...Don't get any big ideas
They're not gonna happen..."
I keep forgetting that I have a hotmail account, which is used primarily for mailing lists. I checked it today, and while sifting through my inbox of 398 new messages (and this with the spam filter set to exclusive!), I see an email telling me that monday (tomorrow) is the last day to download the new radiohead album. Afterwards, it will be available on real cd in a few weeks.
I really wanted to download this album to support them. So, I found my wallet and paid $10 for In Rainbows.
My mind has seriously been fucked. I mean...I've already heard the album...but it was on the background and I really wasn't able to submerge myself into it as I would have liked to.
Well, tonite I drowned and came back to life about 17 times a minute just listening to it. It's seriously one of the most beautiful works of art I have ever been exposed to. I can completely understand now why it's making so many people's Top 10 Albums of 2007 lists.
I was talking to E. as I was listening to it because I started freaking out. This album really fucked with me. It sent me on an emotional rollercoaster and landed me smack dab in the middle of Heartbreak City. Yeah...It was fucked up for me to finally realize the last time I felt this way was the night that E. broke up with me.
My heart swelled with this incredible mixture of pain and desire. Feelings of isolation, deception, anger, desolation, frustration, rejection, depression, betrayal, confusion, bewilderment, surprise, fury, disappointment, and indescribable pain suffocated ever vein and artery. I felt my insides cry out for it to stop. Of all the things I don't ever want to relive, the night that E. broke up with me is right up there with my parents divorce, my first full-fledged breakdown, and the night I almost tried to kill myself.
I mean...SERIOUSLY!!!!
Music can be such a cruel heartless bitch sometimes, eh?
And yet...I'm so satisfied. I love this band. I love that they did this to me. There's a reason they're my #2 favorite band of all time.
Nothing right now can Suck it!
*sigh*
"...I'll be crazy not to follow
follow where you lead..."
They're not gonna happen..."
I keep forgetting that I have a hotmail account, which is used primarily for mailing lists. I checked it today, and while sifting through my inbox of 398 new messages (and this with the spam filter set to exclusive!), I see an email telling me that monday (tomorrow) is the last day to download the new radiohead album. Afterwards, it will be available on real cd in a few weeks.
I really wanted to download this album to support them. So, I found my wallet and paid $10 for In Rainbows.
My mind has seriously been fucked. I mean...I've already heard the album...but it was on the background and I really wasn't able to submerge myself into it as I would have liked to.
Well, tonite I drowned and came back to life about 17 times a minute just listening to it. It's seriously one of the most beautiful works of art I have ever been exposed to. I can completely understand now why it's making so many people's Top 10 Albums of 2007 lists.
I was talking to E. as I was listening to it because I started freaking out. This album really fucked with me. It sent me on an emotional rollercoaster and landed me smack dab in the middle of Heartbreak City. Yeah...It was fucked up for me to finally realize the last time I felt this way was the night that E. broke up with me.
My heart swelled with this incredible mixture of pain and desire. Feelings of isolation, deception, anger, desolation, frustration, rejection, depression, betrayal, confusion, bewilderment, surprise, fury, disappointment, and indescribable pain suffocated ever vein and artery. I felt my insides cry out for it to stop. Of all the things I don't ever want to relive, the night that E. broke up with me is right up there with my parents divorce, my first full-fledged breakdown, and the night I almost tried to kill myself.
I mean...SERIOUSLY!!!!
Music can be such a cruel heartless bitch sometimes, eh?
And yet...I'm so satisfied. I love this band. I love that they did this to me. There's a reason they're my #2 favorite band of all time.
Nothing right now can Suck it!
*sigh*
"...I'll be crazy not to follow
follow where you lead..."