LONG AUGUST
Well folks...august is officially over. When I clocked in today, the little date stamp on the screen proclaimed the start of September. Can't say much except that it was indeed a long august...and there's reason to believe maybe this month will be better than the last (my apologies to Adam Duritz).
It's not often that I listen to the radio these days...and when I do, it's usually NPR. However, this morning my ipod was in my purse, so when I turned the car on, KROQ immediately came on...and what did my ears hear at 4:45am on the 1st of september...the gorgeous sound of Sinead O'Connor singing Prince's Nothing Compares 2 U.
Let me tell you - there's no better way to start a new morning...a new month...a new beginning.
I was practically crying by the time I got to work.
This month has been wicked hard on me - and it all culminated into an all out brawl between me and Chris last nite. Those of you who know me know I'm extremely slow to anger. Sure, I get pissed off and I vent...but I rarely let my anger show itself or even direct it at who I'm actually angry at. I'm very taurus-like this way....i'm easy going enough till I see red.
Well, last nite, I saw red. (my apologies to Bradley Nowell).
I was IM'ing E. as all this unfolded. And, Chris just pressed all the wrong buttons. And my frustration I think got the best of E. because he finally told me to basically stand up for myself... and finally - I couldn't take it any longer. The looks on Chris' and Matt's faces when I finally lost it were of surprise. They had never seen me so filled with anger before. And finally...by about midnite, we resolved our problems. I guess all it took was for me to point out that I didn't need to be here... because once I said that, Chris sang a different tune. And it wasn't a strategic move of any kind to get him to back down...everything I said out of the necessity of honesty.
So...things are calm...for now. And, I hope they stay this way for at least a year.
I hate when I get angry. It takes alot out of me. The last time I was this angry was well...I can't even remember. There are friends whom I've had for over ten years who have never seen me angry...and I hope to keep it that way.
I'm very tired...but I have to go to the valley. Hopefully, I get to take a nap sometime today before my nap.
Tonite we're gonna start moving boxes into the new place.
Okay..shower time.
And,..because I'm all about quoting songs in this post....It was the 1st of September...a day I'll always remember...because that was the day...that my daddy died.
Oh man...I completely love that song.
August can Suck it!
p.s. I miss my best friend.
It's not often that I listen to the radio these days...and when I do, it's usually NPR. However, this morning my ipod was in my purse, so when I turned the car on, KROQ immediately came on...and what did my ears hear at 4:45am on the 1st of september...the gorgeous sound of Sinead O'Connor singing Prince's Nothing Compares 2 U.
Let me tell you - there's no better way to start a new morning...a new month...a new beginning.
I was practically crying by the time I got to work.
This month has been wicked hard on me - and it all culminated into an all out brawl between me and Chris last nite. Those of you who know me know I'm extremely slow to anger. Sure, I get pissed off and I vent...but I rarely let my anger show itself or even direct it at who I'm actually angry at. I'm very taurus-like this way....i'm easy going enough till I see red.
Well, last nite, I saw red. (my apologies to Bradley Nowell).
I was IM'ing E. as all this unfolded. And, Chris just pressed all the wrong buttons. And my frustration I think got the best of E. because he finally told me to basically stand up for myself... and finally - I couldn't take it any longer. The looks on Chris' and Matt's faces when I finally lost it were of surprise. They had never seen me so filled with anger before. And finally...by about midnite, we resolved our problems. I guess all it took was for me to point out that I didn't need to be here... because once I said that, Chris sang a different tune. And it wasn't a strategic move of any kind to get him to back down...everything I said out of the necessity of honesty.
So...things are calm...for now. And, I hope they stay this way for at least a year.
I hate when I get angry. It takes alot out of me. The last time I was this angry was well...I can't even remember. There are friends whom I've had for over ten years who have never seen me angry...and I hope to keep it that way.
I'm very tired...but I have to go to the valley. Hopefully, I get to take a nap sometime today before my nap.
Tonite we're gonna start moving boxes into the new place.
Okay..shower time.
And,..because I'm all about quoting songs in this post....It was the 1st of September...a day I'll always remember...because that was the day...that my daddy died.
Oh man...I completely love that song.
August can Suck it!
p.s. I miss my best friend.