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my summer is slowly crumbling. the entire "group" i've been hanging out with is gone, with the exception of one person. and me and that one person hung out tonight, because i'm not really allowed to cross over into the other group because territory has been "marked" and it's not really my place there.. just like it wasn't his place there last night.
i know i really sound pathetic, i really do have more friends. but of all my close friends one is in california, another in texas, three more in baton rouge, and one in new york.. and only one is coming home anytime soon. so i really have no one right now, and now the people i did "have" are taken away from me. but in a sense i'm relieved, because it's been a real eye-opener. i mean some i knew we're very on the surface "friendships", it was mainly because they were there so i'd talk to them. but the one's that weren't so shallow, i'm glad i learned who my true friends are and who stuck by me. i'm trying not to make judgements yet because the exclusion i feel has only been happening a few days now, but from the way things are going i think i know how everything will end up. it's sad.
i'm sorry everything has revolved around this, i'm sure you light-hearted livejournal fans are getting pretty sick of it.
the next entry will be more upbeat i promise. :)
i know i really sound pathetic, i really do have more friends. but of all my close friends one is in california, another in texas, three more in baton rouge, and one in new york.. and only one is coming home anytime soon. so i really have no one right now, and now the people i did "have" are taken away from me. but in a sense i'm relieved, because it's been a real eye-opener. i mean some i knew we're very on the surface "friendships", it was mainly because they were there so i'd talk to them. but the one's that weren't so shallow, i'm glad i learned who my true friends are and who stuck by me. i'm trying not to make judgements yet because the exclusion i feel has only been happening a few days now, but from the way things are going i think i know how everything will end up. it's sad.
i'm sorry everything has revolved around this, i'm sure you light-hearted livejournal fans are getting pretty sick of it.
the next entry will be more upbeat i promise. :)