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so tonight i planned a stress-free night just hanging out with some close friends. just a night to be happy again and not worry about all the nonsense happening lately. well it was going good, me and shawn were hanging out at TJs talking and catching up. then mike and nick called me after leaving where they were and show up. then the ONE person i went out of my way to not see tonight walks in and comes over by us. it was about this time my heart sunk into my stomach and stayed there for the rest of the night, causing major discomfort. there went chance for a peaceful night. i can't escape it, and i hate the feeling because i don't want to, but it kills me to be around him.
i shouldn't be complaining too much because the night wasn't half as bad as i expected it to be. i mean i was still miserable for the most part, but mike and shawn helped cheer me up a good bit. we played distraction pool.. and of course most of the distractions pertained to him. i definately didn't need that. but i need to learn how to function when he's around because we pretty much have the same group of friends, so chances are i'll see him more than i want, and i can't let my body shut down everytime he's around.
i'm done for the night.
i shouldn't be complaining too much because the night wasn't half as bad as i expected it to be. i mean i was still miserable for the most part, but mike and shawn helped cheer me up a good bit. we played distraction pool.. and of course most of the distractions pertained to him. i definately didn't need that. but i need to learn how to function when he's around because we pretty much have the same group of friends, so chances are i'll see him more than i want, and i can't let my body shut down everytime he's around.
i'm done for the night.