Ok...my poetry time...
I love writing poems...even though they only make sense to me...so, i guess this journal is a perfect place to write all of my poems....
...but before I write here are some of my recent thoughts...
What would I do without Tyson...?? I have been really down on myself lately because I can't lose this last 10 lbs...i feel like a fat *ss...
I feel gross...I decided to start exercising......hopefully that will help...anyway..I ask Tyson if I am ugly...and maybe that is why I don't get along with some people...and he got really mad at me...he first said that He thinks I look great and that it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks...that I am married and I have two kids, so who gives a f*ck what everyone else thinks...that was sooooo sweet...he said that he wishes that I would stop hiding my body because it looks good to him and that's all that counts...well, i'm really not worried about what other people think...I just think my extra 10lbs is gross.... as strong as he is...and he really VERY intelligent and VERY strong...he does have a weak side...but few see it..i think he hates for people to know he has a weak side...his ego is soooo BIG...he does good at almost EVERYTHING he does and each time he does good, there goes his ego...I'm the opposite...it seems I fail a lot because I have such a negative self immage...I created this to help stuff not hurt so much...as with any family...I went through a lot of crap and the way to make it go away was if I thought the worst about myself then I didn't expect much...anyway...so I am very depressed about my weight and Tyson is getting very mad at me for this...he doesn't like seeing me "crazy" as he calls it...if he isn't calling me "crazy" he call me "ditzy" lol...anyway...thank you Tyson for making me feel better about myself...it's nice to know that he thinks I look good... :-) now, I just have to lose 10 lbs and I will think i look good...lol...
and i don't know how he remembers everything so vividly...he could read any history book and tell you everything in it! he loves collecting rifles and he knows each ones scratches and dents and their serial numbers by heart...he goes to a new job and in no time is doing excellent and he knows it!! someone do something about his EGO!! lol>> ...and I have noticed more and more lately...Austin is such a momma's boy and Alexander is such a daddy's boy....when dad leaves to go to work, he is at the door crying "da-da"!! over and over again...he likes to climb up on the couch and watch tv with dad...it's cute....Austin is my boy...he always runs and tells on dad to me...lol...my boys...i think i will have to write a poem later...my boys are screaming....and I want to email people and invite them to come visit us!! anytime!! i want some visitors... all they have to pay for is gas...and tolls...we would feed them! lol>>>....
...but before I write here are some of my recent thoughts...
What would I do without Tyson...?? I have been really down on myself lately because I can't lose this last 10 lbs...i feel like a fat *ss...
I feel gross...I decided to start exercising......hopefully that will help...anyway..I ask Tyson if I am ugly...and maybe that is why I don't get along with some people...and he got really mad at me...he first said that He thinks I look great and that it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks...that I am married and I have two kids, so who gives a f*ck what everyone else thinks...that was sooooo sweet...he said that he wishes that I would stop hiding my body because it looks good to him and that's all that counts...well, i'm really not worried about what other people think...I just think my extra 10lbs is gross.... as strong as he is...and he really VERY intelligent and VERY strong...he does have a weak side...but few see it..i think he hates for people to know he has a weak side...his ego is soooo BIG...he does good at almost EVERYTHING he does and each time he does good, there goes his ego...I'm the opposite...it seems I fail a lot because I have such a negative self immage...I created this to help stuff not hurt so much...as with any family...I went through a lot of crap and the way to make it go away was if I thought the worst about myself then I didn't expect much...anyway...so I am very depressed about my weight and Tyson is getting very mad at me for this...he doesn't like seeing me "crazy" as he calls it...if he isn't calling me "crazy" he call me "ditzy" lol...anyway...thank you Tyson for making me feel better about myself...it's nice to know that he thinks I look good... :-) now, I just have to lose 10 lbs and I will think i look good...lol...
and i don't know how he remembers everything so vividly...he could read any history book and tell you everything in it! he loves collecting rifles and he knows each ones scratches and dents and their serial numbers by heart...he goes to a new job and in no time is doing excellent and he knows it!! someone do something about his EGO!! lol>> ...and I have noticed more and more lately...Austin is such a momma's boy and Alexander is such a daddy's boy....when dad leaves to go to work, he is at the door crying "da-da"!! over and over again...he likes to climb up on the couch and watch tv with dad...it's cute....Austin is my boy...he always runs and tells on dad to me...lol...my boys...i think i will have to write a poem later...my boys are screaming....and I want to email people and invite them to come visit us!! anytime!! i want some visitors... all they have to pay for is gas...and tolls...we would feed them! lol>>>....