No, I have not been living under a rock.
Yes, I am still reading HP & the Deathly Hallows (100 pages to go).
No, I have not been spoilered - miraculous I know.
Yes, I did get it @ opening night release party and still haven't finished.
No, I don't really understand how I can tolerate the suspense either.
So with 100 pages to go JKR gets to the much debated point - Snape: good or evil. I've been saying good pretty consistently and I think that his final pensieve memories reveal a reluctant and misguided, but firm, siding with the light. But are you still a good guy, if you're playing the part, but don't believe any of the rhetoric? That's the question. I'm glad that so far Snape is still, even in death, ambiguous and yet entirely familiar.
*Harry is a Horcrux*
*Harry is a Horcrux*
*Harry is a Horcrux*
Now I do realize that the last hundred pages may reveal this to be all a ruse on Dumbledore's part or that the Hallows might somehow save his life, but popular theory again prevails - Harry is a horcrux.
I've read a LOT of HP fanfic over the last 4 years, which creates this kind of wierd amalgamation of the HP universe in my head - most of it is JKR canon, but quite a lot is influenced by my fandom experience. Some of the authors are so great that I at times get a bit confused about whether a scene I remember is official or not. Some would consider this sacrilege, but I think it enriches my experience of the text in a way that I will be able to enjoy for many more years, even though JKR is done with the series.
I've been a bit down on JKR in the past, but with this book I am reminded of why I fell in love with the series in the first place. She might not be the most poetic(?) or artistic(?) author and she might suck hard at teh math, but she has created my favorite universe of all time and I am so glad she shared it. In my first crack at HP:DH I got through maybe 300 pages and was feeling frustrated and disappointed by her rather formulaic plotting of Harry (ever year he goes through the same internal struggle - are we expected to believe that this boy hasn't grown at all emotionally from all this drama? aren't your teens one of the most diverse and groundbreaking periods in life?). But as I got deeper into the story my frustration and technical complaints have been completely forgotten, it's just not possible for me to stay distant and unfeelingly outside the story with these characters. So damn you, JKR, you've got some kind of skill after all.
What I really loved about this book so far is that none of the speculation or stories I've read have had any real similarities to the reality; it's very refreshing. But now as I approach the finish we start to get into the bigger questions that a lot of fans focused on in their own stories - Harry = horcrux, Snape: good or evil, etc. And because so many others have put their own versions out there it's really kind of bizarre to discover how it's "officially" going to go down.
I don't think this entry made any sense, but you can kind of see the many things that go through my mind while reading something so enthralling. I had a horrible time trying to sleep last night as I considered all the possible ways it could all end. Geesh.
In kitty news: they're not quite up to weight for getting spay/neutered so it looks like it'll be the end of the week before they actually get to come home. I'm hoping for a birthday deliver (Friday).