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I've been thinking . . . there isn't much left for me to do but think . . . and I've been thinking that all of this is my fault. And when you look back on things with those eyes, well, then everything falls into place. From the beginning, it was always me who was getting in the way; always my feelings that were too strong or my reactions that were too much. Maybe . . . maybe if I could have just trusted in us more, things would have turned out differently.
But the problem with seeing all of this now is that it doesn't make one bit of difference. I know that I will love Sean for always, but you can't make someone love you. But I also can't just stop loving him. It doesn't work that way.
At least I know now that I have no one to blame for this but myself.
But the problem with seeing all of this now is that it doesn't make one bit of difference. I know that I will love Sean for always, but you can't make someone love you. But I also can't just stop loving him. It doesn't work that way.
At least I know now that I have no one to blame for this but myself.