I did not give into the urge to binge eat.

I did not give into the urge to self harm.

...and my cooperating teacher is a total cunt.

sometimes I really fucking hate my life.

How do you guys deal with apathy?

I feel numb most of the time.  It seems as though sadness and anger linger a bit, but happiness and excitement are so fleeting as to make me question if I actually experienced them or just the memory of them like some flashback of nostalgia.

'Cause adam_0oo does not believe I don't have a six-pack.
( I like big bellies and I cannot lie, you other brothers can't deny... )

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I have entered phase 2 of my meds by doubling my dose on schedule.  So far, I feeling much better.  I still have days of epic sadness, but its not everyday.  I feel less overwhelmed by the world.  Also, I'm not eating out of comfort anymore - so I've lost 5 pounds.  If I lose another five by going to my school's fitness center I'll be back in shape ( Read more... )

I have been on anti-depressants for about a week now and the insomnia + the nausea = 5 pounds lost.  I'm down to eating 1 meal a day with no junk food and I'm drinking more water.  Now, if I could just get more than 2 hours sleep I'd be in business.

I've seen my Dr. and started taking the generic version of Zoloft again.  I've gone off the meloxicam for my hip so that I can take the anti-depression meds.  Once again the zoloft is giving me nausea and I hate it.  I would rather have cramps and diarrhea - at least I know how to sooth myself with those ailments.  As much as I dislike it I have to ( Read more... )

( just me bitchin' )