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i hate myself more than ever.
i am an idiot.
10th grade is almost over && i have literally accomplished nothing that i ever wanted. every plan i have made, every guy i have liked, every friendship, everything has blown up in my face. this is by far the second worst year of my entire life && it really only takes that title because 7th grade will never be topped in its pure awfulness. from homecoming to finals this year has been unbelievably bad. i just want it to be over so summer can start && i can pretend like none of this matters. possibly summer won't suck? probably not. as fun as this self-depricating little rant is i think i'm done.
i am an idiot.
&& i would like to remind myself that it's not helping. it's only making my head worse. filling it up with false comfort. whatever. i still need. i'm done lying to myself && say that i don't. i am idiot.
i am an idiot.
10th grade is almost over && i have literally accomplished nothing that i ever wanted. every plan i have made, every guy i have liked, every friendship, everything has blown up in my face. this is by far the second worst year of my entire life && it really only takes that title because 7th grade will never be topped in its pure awfulness. from homecoming to finals this year has been unbelievably bad. i just want it to be over so summer can start && i can pretend like none of this matters. possibly summer won't suck? probably not. as fun as this self-depricating little rant is i think i'm done.
i am an idiot.
&& i would like to remind myself that it's not helping. it's only making my head worse. filling it up with false comfort. whatever. i still need. i'm done lying to myself && say that i don't. i am idiot.