i am a soundingboard.

is it bad that i'm happy to be grounded?

danny i want to sincerly, oddly, && shockingly thank you. as much as i could hate you, as badly as this all ended, you showed me exactly what i want. if i could have one relationship for the rest of my life, it would be ours for the first 2 weeks. perfect. you showed me exactly how i deserve to be treated. you made everything okay. && even though ( Read more... )

i guess i'll just never get it. two weeks ago you put up with my insane family. you could deal with my friends. you said all the right things. everything was fine. you told me you loved me. && now it's all gone to hell. && i hate your immature-half-together-so-everything-falls-apart-on-its-own-then-its-not-really-your-fault way of dealing with this ( Read more... )

i think i got everything i wanted out of that conversation. i just don't think i'll ever be able to tell you. but thats okay right now, i think you get that. i think you get how messed up i am. i think you'll put up with it, even though you don't have to. i think you're all that i could need right now. i love that my parents like you. i love that i ( Read more... )

i miss you. && i know that i'm going to end up missing something that was never that big of a deal. but to me, it was. you we're the only one who ever felt real to me. && now you're gone && it's all my fault && i can't fix it. i can't because it's you && you don't listen && it's too hard. && i feel like it could have been something so much more ( Read more... )

i could go on for hours. i could go on for days. i could write a whole fucking book at this point. but i'm just too damn tired.  && if you read this, i want you to know that i stand by what i said: you were being a two-faced bitch. end of story. if you have a problem with me you say something to my face. you have a mature conversation, not online ( Read more... )

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yay :)

note to self: when you're having a bad day, don't read old journal entries from a time when you had a best friend && didn't feel like jumping off a building.

but now it's too late to save the night anyways && i have some things to say to some people.

1. i have faith that our friendship is for real && forever. i wrote that. i wrote that about you. ( Read more... )

i can not remember the last time i cried this hard.