I've found that the more attention I pay to doing what I want, the less bored I am no matter where I am.
But, then, I've found that the more selfishly I live my life the happier I get in general, so maybe you shouldn't use my experience as a guide. Selfish is bad.
More and more, I want to go home soon to perhaps dip a foot into the formal waters of photography at Ryerson.
you really should do something like that. you have amazing talent and shouldn't let it go to "waste" [not that you're wasting it...but you know what i mean.
Thanks for the vote of confidence! I think what's holding me back the most is that I'm afraid I'm not good enough -- high-achieving girl with low self-esteem talking!
I think you're good enough to work as a photographer, not just study as one. Maybe you need to learn more about the technology, or the business, or whatever - the mechanics of being a professional photographer - but I think you've already got a fantastic artistic sense. [/IMHO]
If you do go to school, I hope they don't train that out of you... I hope you keep trusting what you already know how to see.
I should really go to bed and quit filling your journal with my babble. Heh. CrazehTalkSleepTimeBoingBoing
Thanks! And thanks for giving me a new perspective... actually, I'm not sure if you'd even call it that (that you said hopefully school doesn't train my artistic sense out of me). I never quite considered whether that could happen -- that my work would end up being a clone of everyone else's or something of that sort. I'm one of those people who thinks that school gives you some credibility in a profession so it's quite the necessary thing to have. Unfortunately.
You should start an expiriment. Everyday try something new in an old place. Buy a boquet of flowers and give one to each person that walks by. Don't you have fairy wings, you said? Wear them and dance around in a park. Ya know? Decorate your little place in say...a Chinese way, and then make chinese food for the both of you...but remember...no sitting on chairs at the table!
I don't know... let me live vicariously through you... ;)
That does sound like a brilliant idea! I might just try that... except where I am now, it's old and new simultaneously -- if that makes sense. The old makes it tiresome. The new makes me want to go back to what I'm familiar with -- miles and miles away. I think I've begun to ramble....
P/S: I think it's the Japanese that sit on the floor?
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Oh yeah, and thinking sucks. Socrates was wrong.
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Yeah, I'm back in Edmonton now. And bored out of my mind. Hence, the thinking thing.
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But, then, I've found that the more selfishly I live my life the happier I get in general, so maybe you shouldn't use my experience as a guide. Selfish is bad.
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Yeah, that's true... selfishness does lead to happiness. Not very moral, but at least you're happy?
I have to find something I want to do first. This is so sad.
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you really should do something like that. you have amazing talent and shouldn't let it go to "waste" [not that you're wasting it...but you know what i mean.
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Thanks for the vote of confidence! I think what's holding me back the most is that I'm afraid I'm not good enough -- high-achieving girl with low self-esteem talking!
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If you do go to school, I hope they don't train that out of you... I hope you keep trusting what you already know how to see.
I should really go to bed and quit filling your journal with my babble. Heh. CrazehTalkSleepTimeBoingBoing
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Thanks!
And thanks for giving me a new perspective... actually, I'm not sure if you'd even call it that (that you said hopefully school doesn't train my artistic sense out of me). I never quite considered whether that could happen -- that my work would end up being a clone of everyone else's or something of that sort.
I'm one of those people who thinks that school gives you some credibility in a profession so it's quite the necessary thing to have. Unfortunately.
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You should start an expiriment. Everyday try something new in an old place. Buy a boquet of flowers and give one to each person that walks by. Don't you have fairy wings, you said? Wear them and dance around in a park. Ya know? Decorate your little place in say...a Chinese way, and then make chinese food for the both of you...but remember...no sitting on chairs at the table!
I don't know... let me live vicariously through you... ;)
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That does sound like a brilliant idea! I might just try that... except where I am now, it's old and new simultaneously -- if that makes sense. The old makes it tiresome. The new makes me want to go back to what I'm familiar with -- miles and miles away. I think I've begun to ramble....
P/S: I think it's the Japanese that sit on the floor?
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haha oh yeah. well, same thing. except, make um... soba noodles instead =]
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