So okay fun stuff first... I got a new lap top.. soooooooo happy about it. I hate vista but... I am dealing, cuz dude laptop is the coolness... love my new laptop ( Read more... )

So I guess its a bit morbid of me to think that in two days it will be one year. I can feel myself slipping into a downward spiral but I know I will be fine. I always am ( Read more... )

So, its getting closer. I'm not as affected as I thought I would be but then again, I haven't been sleeping much. Just a few hours a night. I know the first year is supposed to be the hardest, its why I keep thinking to myself that it will get better ( Read more... )

Wow, I can't believe its almost been a year. Its hard. I didn't realize how hard until tonight, when for no reason what so ever, I got really down. Hell I still am. I can't take this anymore... Well I can, but I don't want to. Not now ( Read more... )

Okay so today is the huge game where everyone dies. Joking... Maybe... ::evil laugh:: No really, I'm all hyped up about it. this will be my second big game, the first was when I was first becoming an ST in my game. Now I'm the HST and things are different. I, just can't believe it. I mean, wow... sooo much to prepare for, so much to do... But ( Read more... )

Well today went a heck of a lot better then I expected. Only a few times today did I feel like crying. I miss my parents. I miss my mom the most. Many people say that there is no connection like that between an mother and her child. They are so right. Too bad it took loosing her to realize this ( Read more... )

Hope everyone has a happy Thanksgiving.

So I'm all better. Well most of the way. My knee still hurts some, but its not like it was. I can bend it, but still can't put much pressure on it ( Read more... )

So I had another awesome weekend. It was just the awesome to say the least. But yeah I was exhausted by the time I got home on sunday. I went right to bed. Got up and started a bad day. It was one of those day's that is going great until one thing goes wrong, then everything goes wrong ( Read more... )

So I really want to contact F. he asked me to. I don't want him to think I didn't like him or have a good time. But honestly I'm scared. I don't know why I know he likes me. And he knows I'm not looking for a relationship. I really had a great time and he's great guy ( Read more... )