bye bye 04
So um, the year is almost over. It has been a year of both good and bad. I would say the good, mainly the past.....well since August 23, far outweighs the bad. I've nearly forgotten all of the bad stuff that honestly I don't care about now.
First half of the year was pretty crummy because I was ready to get out of school. I was sick of things, and the political way in which they worked. I was iritated that I felt the need to be fake and pretend to like people I didn't. I was sick of feeling like my parents hated me, and I felt worthless, and I felt like a failure. The highlights were South Carolina(one of the best weeks of my life!) and Texas(trip kinda sucked but it was still fun)
Summer was the transition. I spent lots of time with the people I wanted to maintain bonds with. I was scared and nervous about leaving this comfort zone, I was scared of failing. Now I know there was nothing to fear. Highlights- going to the drive in a few times, hanging with Nicole and Kelly quite a bit.
Fall I started Ball State, nervous, not knowing what to expect. I was surprised that it wasn't as hard as I anticipated and therefore slacked a little bit. I was finally able to sever some ties to my past. With some help from people who care about me, and what is in my best interest(for those people I can't express my gratitude enough- I think you know who you are) I was able to focus on strengthening bonds with people I'd like to keep in my life. And lets not forget that I discovered that I am the luckiest girl in the world.
I would like to just say thanks to people who stuck by my side,and dealt with me because I love you all. This has been one of the best years(if not THE best) of my life. I'm just so happy, thanks in large part to one special person.
So this is my farewell to 2004, farewell to things I've been holding onto for too long. And I welcome 2005 hoping it brings much more of the happiness I've had for the past few months.
First half of the year was pretty crummy because I was ready to get out of school. I was sick of things, and the political way in which they worked. I was iritated that I felt the need to be fake and pretend to like people I didn't. I was sick of feeling like my parents hated me, and I felt worthless, and I felt like a failure. The highlights were South Carolina(one of the best weeks of my life!) and Texas(trip kinda sucked but it was still fun)
Summer was the transition. I spent lots of time with the people I wanted to maintain bonds with. I was scared and nervous about leaving this comfort zone, I was scared of failing. Now I know there was nothing to fear. Highlights- going to the drive in a few times, hanging with Nicole and Kelly quite a bit.
Fall I started Ball State, nervous, not knowing what to expect. I was surprised that it wasn't as hard as I anticipated and therefore slacked a little bit. I was finally able to sever some ties to my past. With some help from people who care about me, and what is in my best interest(for those people I can't express my gratitude enough- I think you know who you are) I was able to focus on strengthening bonds with people I'd like to keep in my life. And lets not forget that I discovered that I am the luckiest girl in the world.
I would like to just say thanks to people who stuck by my side,and dealt with me because I love you all. This has been one of the best years(if not THE best) of my life. I'm just so happy, thanks in large part to one special person.
So this is my farewell to 2004, farewell to things I've been holding onto for too long. And I welcome 2005 hoping it brings much more of the happiness I've had for the past few months.