Nov 09, 2006 23:52
It’s been an emotional rollercoaster these past few days. I just feel so misplaced, I don’t know whether I should be smiling or crying. Problem is I’m finding it hard to do either at the moment. I am just motionless. I feel exasperated, knowing that there are so many sad things to be crying about and so many happy things to be laughing about. I just feel like I am never able to find the convenient time to do either. So I stand unaffected and passive until I am sure I won’t offend anyone by showing the glints of a smile or a glitter of a tear.
What is the right emotion to feel when you loose someone close?
Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die. (Anonymous)
This poem was wooden framed on my yellow and blue bedroom wall when I lived in London. My mother told me to read it every time I missed someone as it helped ease the pain. She often used to try and explain her view of the perception of life.
So how am I supposed to feel right now? Should I sit and pretend to weep, or shall I smile and tell everyone those famous words, “It will be alright.”