My leg's coming out of the closet
Hi guys,
So last night we took my yearly photos of my right leg to show the deterioration (if you don't know me from anything other than games I twisted my ankle in 2003 when I was 11 and caused a nerve damage that has since spread through my body). It was quite shocking to compare them to last year's photos and see how much has changed. I tried to pair the photos up so they could show along side each other, but I couldn't make it work (If you have the time and would like to help please pm me, I would like them for my personal medical records if nothing else).
I've never shared anything like this before, and last night when I was laying in too much pain to sleep I realised why. I was ashamed. But it's not my fault. Why should I be ashamed? I hid my disability away from public eyes for YOUR sake, not mine. And I'm fed up of doing it! I'm fed up of people saying I seem mentally fine so they doubt my disability.
If you saw a soldier who'd had their legs blown off in a bomb blast you wouldn't tell them to hid it, that is was a disgrace, because it's not their fault! And I shouldn't have to either! It took me meeting a neighbour of mine (who will remain nameless unless he wants to come forward) to realise this.
So from now on you will hear about my medical problems, not just me saying "I'm having a bad week". And if you don't like it I'll be happy to give you unfriending instructions!
This is ME. DEAL WITH IT!
I will warn for large pictures under the cut, but I won't warn for graphic images as such, although you may not want to eat anything pastry based while looking!
Inside of foot. The brown stuff is dead skin we can't remove and the last time my nails were cut were several years ago when I was under a general.
Outside of foot with left toe creeping into the picture! The nail was removed several years ago, but it was botched and has been worse than it was before ever since
Top off foot. Here you can see the nail growth
Inside of leg. This is not bigger around than my mother's forearm
Outside of leg. Muscles are severely depleted.
Top of leg. If you zoom in you can see my little toenail is curled back around and growing into my foot
Finally I would like to say I have done this because I am fed up of hiding away in a corner, but also because I know some of you out there have disabilities, and I think it's important we don't hide. I'm sorry if these images upset you, please feel free to ask any question you want. Also, if you know of a community where these may be suitable please let me know
Thank you for your time