First Time [Part three of three]
Title: First Time
Summary: Summary: Ian and Anthony return from a party, where Anthony had a few drinks. Alcohol gives bravery, but takes away control. How far will they go?
Rating/Warnings: PG13 (NC-17 in part two); implied drunkenness/hangover, suggestive of sexual actions, yaoi
Disclaimer: If this really happened, then bitch, I must be Raven! ;D Nope, don't own Smosh. Didn't happen. Fiction. Blah blah blah etc.
A/N: UGH Took forever to post here again. To be honest, I've been focused more on the Desandnate fandom, but I miss shipping Ianthony, and this last part has been sitting unfinished on my laptop for ages! So here you are, lovelies. As in the other parts, this is written in a sort of verse, since it seemed to fit the story. Aye, well, hop on board mates. C:
Part One!!
Part Two!!
First Time, Part |||
In moments of ecstasy
All you want to do is let go
Feel it
Embrace it
Get lost in it
You don’t care about consequences
Not about what comes next
What happens when you turn the page
Come face to face with what you’ve done
Last night was amazing
Full of confessions
Full of new experiences
Full of love
But today is a new day
My mind has returned
Though tainted by a dizzying head ache,
I still remember what happened
What we did
My eyes open
Revealing a swirling world around me
I blink as fuzzy details settle in
You’re sleeping beside me
You’re face inches from mine
Memories return in a flash
And reality smacks me
I’m suddenly very aware
Of your breath on my face
Your legs tangled in mine
Your arm thrown over me
My heart’s pace quickens
My face flushes
Thoughts fly around in my mind
Fighting to unscramble and make sense
My breaths come shallow
My face heats further
Panic and anxiety course through me
As jumbled thoughts worsen my head-ache with incessant buzzing
Alcohol is liquid courage
The poison gave me strength
The will to confess to you
To let all this happen
Now, though, I’m vulnerable
Nothing tainting my mind
Except worried thoughts and dull throbbing
I try to think
Slow my racing mind
My racing heart
To no success
You begin to stir beside me
Nestling your head against the pillow
Stretching your legs
Eyes still closed
What will happen when they open, I wonder
Will they see me
And fill with regret?
Shame?
Disgust?
Will they be your brilliant, ocean blue eyes
Or cold, icy daggers
Piercing me
Laying here weak, anxious, worried?
A million thoughts go through my mind
A million worries
What will happen next?
How will you react?
When will this too-long moment finally end?
Suddenly, your eyes open
Bright, brilliant blues
Staring directly into mine
My heart all but stops, my breath halts as I wait
Your lips pull up
Into a small smile
Eyes sparkling as usual
Maybe more
A thousand pounds are lifted from me
Worries all meaningless
Mind completely blank
As I look into those eyes
Your eyes
I no longer think about what will come next
What you’ll think
Where we go from here
All I care about is this moment
Seeing the love
The lust
The carefree look in your crystalline eyes
My mouth is no longer connected
To my blank mind
Suddenly, I’m speaking
I don’t try to stop the words from falling form my lips
Truly believing every syllable
“I love you, Ian.”