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i have to type because it's my only plausible distraction lying around on the bed isn't doing it for me but what else can i do nothing so i do this which is the same thing dwelling but i don't feel so alone i guess reminds me of frida watched it earlier lenin's quote on why people would like her work because it reflected the universal condition ( Read more... )

REALLY SAD

YOU CAN PLAN A PRETTY PICNIC BUT YOU CAN'T PREDICT THE WEATHER

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in all honesty i find it incredibly vile because it feels again like my deepest conflicts are here manifesting themselves in perfect "rational" form which leaves a duality multiplicity of "rational" explanations that make absolute fucking sense which makes me really question the validity of reason as a construct i really think it's vile and thus my ( Read more... )

well i guess i'm just oging to type as i go first thing i noticed was how you said you just CAN'T understand why you can't have platonic relationships which reminded me of what i said and the reason being so is that i can't separate the two worlds i used to and that's what i meant by alex grey's black/white thing now he sees things grey he sees the ( Read more... )

pretty much hate myself irresolutely right now circumstances lend themselves to me being a "natural" at anything i do intellectualloy or phsycially but have i ever done anything in any field or whatever i don't really care ideally because i devote myself full time to being who i am but in this world i'm forced to work in fields and even in ( Read more... )

i sit around and watch braveheart and i realize how vile things are i see what should be painfully obvious how vile the concept of nobility is england taking the scots freedom and i realize how much like william wallace i am and i fucking hate my life i'm tired of everything negative that's all i ever do i sit around and talk shit about things i ( Read more... )

arr brazilian fucking jiu-jitsu tonight guy told me i could come to the first couple of classes before i had to sign up so tonight and then wednesday when their new instructor pan am games lightweight champion teaches the class unconscionable allegedly my size can't wait to see what happens lsd not currently being available in houston can't be the ( Read more... )

realizing more as i go had the thought i'm no different than the people who would do it for escape mine's just a more "emotional" escape because i feel things that make it necessary for me to have something more than flash bang movies every day what they're asking for so i was asking if trying to create beauty is a bad thing and i guess i don't ( Read more... )