follow up.
it just feels like it went from being fun, with us just playing around... to work. You dont just set rules like that. and give me bullshit that its "either you obey the rules or i'll call the whole thing off"
he said that if i want him to dominate me, then those are the rules. well first of all... i never asked. i merely informed him of things that i enjoy, and he took it upon himself to go all out. i dont need it.
plus it seems like its premature. i spent two days with him. he doesnt know where my limits are, or whats pushing them, or when to stop even if i dont say anything.the trust isnt quite there. being able to only have input when i think that im in immediate danger... is not sexy to me.
this is the first guy that i've had feelings for, and been physical with, in a long time. and like i said earlier .. i only got to spend 2 days with him.. and not see him for a month and a half... and after our weekend i probably wont see him for a year. i dont want to fuck a dom .. all business and rules. maybe i just wanted to make love to my boyfriend.. or lover.. or whatever i'm supposed to call him. i mean after all i can go to the club at any point and find a guy that will fuck the shit out of me and treat me like dirt... but not often that i find someone that i want more than a one night stand with.
i'm afraid its going to go from okay...to i dont ever want to see him again in the blink of an eye. and that would actually make me sad.
he said that if i want him to dominate me, then those are the rules. well first of all... i never asked. i merely informed him of things that i enjoy, and he took it upon himself to go all out. i dont need it.
plus it seems like its premature. i spent two days with him. he doesnt know where my limits are, or whats pushing them, or when to stop even if i dont say anything.the trust isnt quite there. being able to only have input when i think that im in immediate danger... is not sexy to me.
this is the first guy that i've had feelings for, and been physical with, in a long time. and like i said earlier .. i only got to spend 2 days with him.. and not see him for a month and a half... and after our weekend i probably wont see him for a year. i dont want to fuck a dom .. all business and rules. maybe i just wanted to make love to my boyfriend.. or lover.. or whatever i'm supposed to call him. i mean after all i can go to the club at any point and find a guy that will fuck the shit out of me and treat me like dirt... but not often that i find someone that i want more than a one night stand with.
i'm afraid its going to go from okay...to i dont ever want to see him again in the blink of an eye. and that would actually make me sad.