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oh wow. so i just became a home wrecker? michael had called me to say goodnight and then he just hung up. i sent him a text teasing him about it and he replied with the fact that his wife had just asked him if he had a girlfriend. WTF? i mean yeah hed been kind of obvious about it talking to me for hours on end in the middle of the night so im sure itd be hard to miss. however what really confused me is that she seemed okay about it. apparently its some weird cultural thing about men having affairs after theyve been married a while... i was expecting broken things and someone screaming into the phone and stalking me and killing my dog.... okay maybe i watch too much drama on tv, but still.
it makes it a little bit better now that she kind of suspects it. mostly because i hated the idea of blindsiding someone who thought things were going well, then again the way that he had explained things it didnt sound like it.. ... i'm having an affair.. well thats not shocking at all, but the fact that hes married thats .. interesting to say the least. it makes me feel kind of shameful and wrong mostly for her. i didnt want to hurt her, but then again i'm married and i have affairs all the time and i dont really take into consideration how jared feels about it. i know he doesnt like it, he probably hates it, but hed rather let me do what i want than lose me. maybe thats the same way with her... though love thats that selfless is hard for me to picture.
i was trying to write on here to work out my feelings about this.. but now i'm all jumbly and cant really form a sentence.
it makes it a little bit better now that she kind of suspects it. mostly because i hated the idea of blindsiding someone who thought things were going well, then again the way that he had explained things it didnt sound like it.. ... i'm having an affair.. well thats not shocking at all, but the fact that hes married thats .. interesting to say the least. it makes me feel kind of shameful and wrong mostly for her. i didnt want to hurt her, but then again i'm married and i have affairs all the time and i dont really take into consideration how jared feels about it. i know he doesnt like it, he probably hates it, but hed rather let me do what i want than lose me. maybe thats the same way with her... though love thats that selfless is hard for me to picture.
i was trying to write on here to work out my feelings about this.. but now i'm all jumbly and cant really form a sentence.