the fun day I had yesterday
Yesterday was so much fun! Man! I wish all my days can be just like that!
Mom stayed home from work, because she was trying to get a doctors appointment switched. Let me tell you, she's worrying me, but that's for another time. We were at each other's throats for the whole morning. I was grumpy and bitchy, she was grumpy and bitchy. Did not make for a good combination. I laid out for a little bit. That was nice. It was so beautiful.
Then Mom and I got ready to go to Bobbi's funeral. Wore the same thing I wore last week. Except the shoes were different, becaue I wore my other black heels that I can't walk in...lol. My good ones werein my car, which was getting fixed. Oops!
The memorial service was a lot better this week, just because It wasn't some bible humper trying to cram god and jesus down our throats. Of couse the first Person who spoke, I guess was a Minister, but to me he was just some annoying Jive talkin turkey. Seriously, annoying. He was like one of those guys that were all into jazz a couple of decades ago with the whispery staccato voice. It was horrible.
But, everyone else who spoke did a great job. Her brother in law spoke and it was very touching. They were all great, and you could tell they were heartbroken. It was all very touching and moving. and they were right, Bobbi and her husband Dennis, had that kind of marraige. That I don't know how they do it, but they're perfect for each other and are a complete circle. Now that circle is broken.
She really probably is in a better place, even though it sucks. She was in so much pain, so much more than anyone should ever have to go through. She was only 44, and was recovering from her 5th back surgery since April of this year. That's the thing that got me. When they said she was not feeling any pain anymore. But you couldn't tell she was in pain from the way she acted most of the time. I mean the woman had a morphine pump imbedded in her spine!
She was just an admirable woman, and a lot of us are feeling the loss. Someone last week lost a son, this week, someone lost a mother. It's horrible.
So that was also one of the most akward places I have ever been. Kat was there, so were 2 of her ex boyfriends, Jeremy's drama queens were there, and I had to deal with not only my ex Bean, but, his mother being there. He was immature of course. wouldn't even look at me. Whatever. After the service, mom and I left immediately, so not to make anyone uncomfortable. Of course I would never want to hurt anyone's feelings.
So we were in Port St. John, so I ask to go to the Publix there becuase it has a glass bottle coke machine, and I like to cheat with caffinee every once in awhile. I hobble in to the foyer, where it usually is, and IT'S NOT THERE! I was so upset. But I found one later at a BP.
So I went to dinner with mom and Neil. El Tucan. I just don't like that place too much.
Then, Fishlips has a softball team that plays on Wed. nights. Couldn't go to the game last week, because of Tommy's viewing, so I went this week. I take my pimpmobile (the escort station wagon)and head out. I get there and walk up to where they are and, SURPRISE SURPRISE, guess who's standing there? Bean and a bunch of our friends. So once again, he is immature. He goes off somewhere else in his drunken haze. What the fuck ever. He can't be a grown up, and just aknowledge my presence and then we don't have to say anything to each other but we CAn sit in the same set of bleachers. I do not have any contagious diseases (that I know of).
Then, he goes after Kat for it. She did what she should have, she cussed him out and said don't you dare put me in the middle! Good for her. But I got pissed. I got really pissed. I almost went over there and said something, but I don't want to cause a scene. Of couse I still look like the bad person. Somehow it just makes me seem like a bitch. Oh... she broke his heart. BULLSHIT! he broke up with me!
Then sean didn't come out and was grumpy, and I was snippy because of the way the day was going. I just totally wanted the day to end. So after the game I went home and straight to bed. Didn't pass go, didn't collect $200, although that money would have been nice!
All in all, I never need to have a day like yesterdy ever again. I was so stressed and tense, my stomach was in knots, My muscles were all tight and rigid, and I was just so uncomfortable.
Oh and when asked, "didn't you think this meeting was inevitable?", Bean replied with "No I had hoped to be in Orlando and never have to see her again for the rest of my life"
Thanks asshole. Fuck you too. I'm through avoiding places you might be because it might upset you to see me. I'm through not talking to my friends because I don't want to make you uncomfortable. I'm through being considerate. I'll take Sean with me where ever. I will not walk on eggshells any longer, catering to your moods. I should have stopped when we broke up, but I am a nice person (sometimes) and figuered I would be courteous.
yeah, that was basically the extent of my day. Today I have a dr.'s appmt, a psychology appmt., and a bunch of errands to run. FUN FUN!
Mom stayed home from work, because she was trying to get a doctors appointment switched. Let me tell you, she's worrying me, but that's for another time. We were at each other's throats for the whole morning. I was grumpy and bitchy, she was grumpy and bitchy. Did not make for a good combination. I laid out for a little bit. That was nice. It was so beautiful.
Then Mom and I got ready to go to Bobbi's funeral. Wore the same thing I wore last week. Except the shoes were different, becaue I wore my other black heels that I can't walk in...lol. My good ones werein my car, which was getting fixed. Oops!
The memorial service was a lot better this week, just because It wasn't some bible humper trying to cram god and jesus down our throats. Of couse the first Person who spoke, I guess was a Minister, but to me he was just some annoying Jive talkin turkey. Seriously, annoying. He was like one of those guys that were all into jazz a couple of decades ago with the whispery staccato voice. It was horrible.
But, everyone else who spoke did a great job. Her brother in law spoke and it was very touching. They were all great, and you could tell they were heartbroken. It was all very touching and moving. and they were right, Bobbi and her husband Dennis, had that kind of marraige. That I don't know how they do it, but they're perfect for each other and are a complete circle. Now that circle is broken.
She really probably is in a better place, even though it sucks. She was in so much pain, so much more than anyone should ever have to go through. She was only 44, and was recovering from her 5th back surgery since April of this year. That's the thing that got me. When they said she was not feeling any pain anymore. But you couldn't tell she was in pain from the way she acted most of the time. I mean the woman had a morphine pump imbedded in her spine!
She was just an admirable woman, and a lot of us are feeling the loss. Someone last week lost a son, this week, someone lost a mother. It's horrible.
So that was also one of the most akward places I have ever been. Kat was there, so were 2 of her ex boyfriends, Jeremy's drama queens were there, and I had to deal with not only my ex Bean, but, his mother being there. He was immature of course. wouldn't even look at me. Whatever. After the service, mom and I left immediately, so not to make anyone uncomfortable. Of course I would never want to hurt anyone's feelings.
So we were in Port St. John, so I ask to go to the Publix there becuase it has a glass bottle coke machine, and I like to cheat with caffinee every once in awhile. I hobble in to the foyer, where it usually is, and IT'S NOT THERE! I was so upset. But I found one later at a BP.
So I went to dinner with mom and Neil. El Tucan. I just don't like that place too much.
Then, Fishlips has a softball team that plays on Wed. nights. Couldn't go to the game last week, because of Tommy's viewing, so I went this week. I take my pimpmobile (the escort station wagon)and head out. I get there and walk up to where they are and, SURPRISE SURPRISE, guess who's standing there? Bean and a bunch of our friends. So once again, he is immature. He goes off somewhere else in his drunken haze. What the fuck ever. He can't be a grown up, and just aknowledge my presence and then we don't have to say anything to each other but we CAn sit in the same set of bleachers. I do not have any contagious diseases (that I know of).
Then, he goes after Kat for it. She did what she should have, she cussed him out and said don't you dare put me in the middle! Good for her. But I got pissed. I got really pissed. I almost went over there and said something, but I don't want to cause a scene. Of couse I still look like the bad person. Somehow it just makes me seem like a bitch. Oh... she broke his heart. BULLSHIT! he broke up with me!
Then sean didn't come out and was grumpy, and I was snippy because of the way the day was going. I just totally wanted the day to end. So after the game I went home and straight to bed. Didn't pass go, didn't collect $200, although that money would have been nice!
All in all, I never need to have a day like yesterdy ever again. I was so stressed and tense, my stomach was in knots, My muscles were all tight and rigid, and I was just so uncomfortable.
Oh and when asked, "didn't you think this meeting was inevitable?", Bean replied with "No I had hoped to be in Orlando and never have to see her again for the rest of my life"
Thanks asshole. Fuck you too. I'm through avoiding places you might be because it might upset you to see me. I'm through not talking to my friends because I don't want to make you uncomfortable. I'm through being considerate. I'll take Sean with me where ever. I will not walk on eggshells any longer, catering to your moods. I should have stopped when we broke up, but I am a nice person (sometimes) and figuered I would be courteous.
yeah, that was basically the extent of my day. Today I have a dr.'s appmt, a psychology appmt., and a bunch of errands to run. FUN FUN!