Break me up
I am a strange person. It's official. I'll always do something in private or think of something in private, and I just start to laugh. I can't stop. On Saterday, during Matt, Christt, and my shroom trip, I couldn't even keep myself in the bathroom because it was so funny. Again, I am a strange person.
My dad comes to see me today. I don't really know if the tension in my chest is excitment or extreme nervousness. I haven't seen him in so long, since my brothers graduation. I know we always get along and we're really similar, but ohhhh how I get scared. He is definately the little voice in my head that tells me if what I'm doing is wrong or not. I guess I always expect him to be as hard on me as I am on myself. I am really excited for him to walk into the housing office and hug me though. It is slightly silly to think about how attached we get to our parents. I get to see my mom in three days as well, but I wish my father was coming with me. Oh, and I can't leave out my grandparents that I'm seeing tommorrow. Christt was talking about his mother last night and it made me really wish I could help my mother with all of her shit, but I can't. I shouldn't be responsible for her.
Last night was my last night with Christt, and Matt and Marty. My goodness I feel like I've lived with them for the last few weeks. It's been awesome. Marty is probably one of the funniest people I have ever met, and Matt is amazing. He has such a logical and beautiful mind. And then there's Christt, who is the most amazing, spectacular, beautiful, perfect person I believe exists. Oh dear. I'm really going to miss him. His eyes were in my dreams last night, laced in with everything. I'm so excited to fly to Denver and meet his family and see Matt and Marty again, and hopefully meet more of the people he loves. I hope he gets better and I don't get sicker. Strep throat sucks, and It's not like I could keep myself from getting it either. I was doomed from the start with all those kisses. mmmmmm.
Ohhh! I just got a project to do from Luda! Hooray! Wow my job is so boring. However, at the same time it's a hell of a lot of work. Christt mentioned that my job wasn't a real job last night and it really upset me. There is so much stuff we have to memorize and recite and deal with in this job. It's a pretty easy and nice envoirnment, but when we have parents yelling and students crying and too much stuff going on, it is not a good place to be at all. Oh Well. Okay, back to work. But AHHH, so much to say...
~by the way, I am eating the best fucking brownie I have ever tasted right now. Thank you nae*
My dad comes to see me today. I don't really know if the tension in my chest is excitment or extreme nervousness. I haven't seen him in so long, since my brothers graduation. I know we always get along and we're really similar, but ohhhh how I get scared. He is definately the little voice in my head that tells me if what I'm doing is wrong or not. I guess I always expect him to be as hard on me as I am on myself. I am really excited for him to walk into the housing office and hug me though. It is slightly silly to think about how attached we get to our parents. I get to see my mom in three days as well, but I wish my father was coming with me. Oh, and I can't leave out my grandparents that I'm seeing tommorrow. Christt was talking about his mother last night and it made me really wish I could help my mother with all of her shit, but I can't. I shouldn't be responsible for her.
Last night was my last night with Christt, and Matt and Marty. My goodness I feel like I've lived with them for the last few weeks. It's been awesome. Marty is probably one of the funniest people I have ever met, and Matt is amazing. He has such a logical and beautiful mind. And then there's Christt, who is the most amazing, spectacular, beautiful, perfect person I believe exists. Oh dear. I'm really going to miss him. His eyes were in my dreams last night, laced in with everything. I'm so excited to fly to Denver and meet his family and see Matt and Marty again, and hopefully meet more of the people he loves. I hope he gets better and I don't get sicker. Strep throat sucks, and It's not like I could keep myself from getting it either. I was doomed from the start with all those kisses. mmmmmm.
Ohhh! I just got a project to do from Luda! Hooray! Wow my job is so boring. However, at the same time it's a hell of a lot of work. Christt mentioned that my job wasn't a real job last night and it really upset me. There is so much stuff we have to memorize and recite and deal with in this job. It's a pretty easy and nice envoirnment, but when we have parents yelling and students crying and too much stuff going on, it is not a good place to be at all. Oh Well. Okay, back to work. But AHHH, so much to say...
~by the way, I am eating the best fucking brownie I have ever tasted right now. Thank you nae*