Finally Another Update!
So yeah its been like forever since I've updated. School has been keeping me pretty busy. I never thought taking 17 hours this semester would be so difficult but its proving me wrong everyday. I feel like I've been hit by a mack truck over and over. I'm so ready for this semester to be over with. I just need a break! I wish I could go on a vacation to my own little private island and recooperate for a while. The sad thing is, next semester I'm gonna be killing myself again so that I can graduate in April/May. Instead of taking 17 hours I will be taking 16 but I'm sure that one hour isnt gonna make much of a differnece. Anyway, besides being worn out from school, I'm doing ok. Chris and I are still doing the long distance thing but are working on getting our own place by the time I graduate. I cant wait! I hate being away from him and only getting to see him 4 days out of a month. I guess it could be worse though but still. I cant wait to wake up and fall asleep beside him every day for the rest of my life! I'm worried about my finances for next semester though. I had set aside some money when I got a loan to come back to school in the first place and then was supposed to get a second loan to help with next semester but that fell through and now I am gonna be paying the price for it when it wasnt even really my fault that it fell through. I just hate when people go back on their word but thats a whole other story for some other time. In other news, Chris and I have been dealing with some very exciting yet scary news for almost three months now. We havent really told too many people and honestly we're trying to keep it that way at least until we know everything is going to be ok. Lets just say its going to be a life changing event which also has me scared and worried about not having a place to live and not being financially stable. Please just keep us in your thoughts and prayers. We need all the help we can get right now. Once we get on our feet and know for sure that everything is going to be ok, I will be sure to let those of you who are interested know whats going on. In the meantime, feel free to guess but I cant promise I will tell you if you're right or wrong...lol. Some big decisions have to be made in the months ahead and sometimes I just feel so alone and confused. I am happy about what is happening to Chris and I but again am also really scared of the outcome. Neither of us has even told our families yet again because we want to make sure everything is gonna be ok and work out for the best. Anyway, I just finished class for the day (Aquatic Ecology) :( and now its time to go back to the apartment and clean. Chris will be coming up tonight for the weekend and I cant wait! I welcome the break because all I've been doing the past few weeks is work, work, work. It seems neverending. He will also be back next weekend and we get to take a mini vacation to Myrtle Beach because my best friend Gillian is getting married! I'm so happy for her and cant wait to see all the family again. She and I became friends in 6th grade and have been friends ever since but her family moved alot so its been 10yrs or more since I have seen her parents or her sisters. I am looking forward to the reunion! I am also hoping that next week Chris and I will get to spend a few extra days together being that is is Thanksgiving. He is off Thanksgiving day but isnt sure if he has to work that Friday or not. I really hope not. We dont get to spend enough time together as it is so I welcome all the time that we can get. Tomorrow night we have tickets to a monster truck rally here in Florence. I am really looking forward to that! I never thought I would be interested in something like monster truck racing but ever since we went to winternationals last year, I really enjoy it. This time there is gonna be a mudding competition and everything :) it looks fun! I'm not sure what I'm doing for Christmas or New Years yet. Hopefully Chris and I will get to spend some time together then too but I dont know. I wish I could go back to his house like I did last year when his mom was in Japan but she is gonna be home this year and isnt exactly accepting of our relationship. I'm not sure why. To my knowledge I havent done anything to her but I guess what they say is true "no one will ever be good enough". I know that that is how my family is too and that nobody being good enough also includes me, but I am just used to it by now. Anyway, I guess thats it for now. Just wanted to let you all know that I didnt fall off the face of the Earth or anything. Sorry for the lack of updates and comments but as you can see I've been fairly busy and not to beat a dead horse or anything but people rarely comment or read what I write anyway so I guess I figure whats the point. Hope all of you are doing well and to those of you that do read and comment, thank you!