I'm walking away from the troubles in my life. I'm walking away to find a better day...
Well...after not writing in here for about...oh, almost 6 months I guess? I decided it was time for an update.
A lot has happened since my last entry.
I lost friends, and gained some. Some of the ones I had lost I gained back. I even became closer to certain friends I already had. Looking back, I never thought I'd be as close to them as I am now.
But I realize who my true friends are (and they realize as well...hopefully.)
So even when we part ways after high school, I know we'll keep in touch. Not as much as we would have wanted to, but we'll still talk.
The reason I'm discussing this is because I've been thinking of it a lot lately.
I wrote in here many months ago, and I never would have thought that the school year would be almost over already. Time honestly has flown, and we have 2 (!) months until we graduate.
I honestly can't believe we're leaving the high school and not returning. In my mind, after this summer, we're all coming back for the next school year. But I know that's not happening, as much as I'd like it to.
The thought of never seeing some of these people again just won't process in my brain. I know we all must go off into the world, and move on, but I'm not ready yet.
That's why I think all the stupid drama bullshit should stop. We all got in so many fights, and things happened this year that was actually worse than other years. At the beginning of the year, we promised each other we wouldn't fight, or cause drama. Yet we do it everyday and let it occur in our lives.
If you don't like somebody, fine. Don't like them.
But if you don't like them, don't talk to them.
Don't talk about them. When you bring them up, and say how much you hate them and how they're so ________ just stop. People don't want to hear it. It's annoying, and not worth talking about.
Stop trying to start a fight with others when there's no reason at all to have one.
I don't want to spend the rest of my Senior year worrying about people fighting, who hates who, and who I "can't/shouldn't" talk to.
I'm a people person, and I like to be friends with everyone.
If someone doesn't like me, whatever. It's not that big of a loss to me.
But I don't want to lose friends I DO have and DO like over something stupid that didn't even have to happen in the first place.
I also want to let everyone know that I don't want to get involved in anything else this year. I'm going to stop arguing with people and try to maintain a pleasant attitude.
I know that I'm always hard on myself and I have little self-esteem, but I decided not to be this way anymore. I was always in a bad mood because of it, and my attitude would reflect on others. I didn't want them to deal with my complaining and negative attitude. I knew they didn't want to be around me when I acted like that, either.
Over the past few days (since Tuesday night) I've stopped being so hard my myself, and maintained a positive attitude. I've been in a great mood since then. It feels really good.
By doing this, I know that I'm happy.
From now on, I'm going to enjoy my life as it is. I understand now if I/it were anyway different, then I just wouldn't be me. I'm going to be happy with what I have.
We only have two months of our Senior year left, then we're all leaving.
I suggest we all enjoy it as much as we can, without any regrets.
I don't know if you guys will agree with me, or will want to do what I wrote about, but this is just what I think. I just wanted to say it to everyone, even if it is only in a livejournal entry. Also cross-posted in a myspace blog. But w/e...lol.
"there's plenty of people who don't like me
but there's ten times more who love me
and I love myself
sometimes, it gets tough
but I can't give up
just take a deep breath, close my eyes
feel the love and give a smile."
"It's me, I just wanna be happy
today is the day I am willing to say
I will put all the past behind me, no more enemies
ready cause I'm living in this world
I wanna make a change. gonna make a change
and put on my happy face."
"Happy Face" - Destiny's Child
A lot has happened since my last entry.
I lost friends, and gained some. Some of the ones I had lost I gained back. I even became closer to certain friends I already had. Looking back, I never thought I'd be as close to them as I am now.
But I realize who my true friends are (and they realize as well...hopefully.)
So even when we part ways after high school, I know we'll keep in touch. Not as much as we would have wanted to, but we'll still talk.
The reason I'm discussing this is because I've been thinking of it a lot lately.
I wrote in here many months ago, and I never would have thought that the school year would be almost over already. Time honestly has flown, and we have 2 (!) months until we graduate.
I honestly can't believe we're leaving the high school and not returning. In my mind, after this summer, we're all coming back for the next school year. But I know that's not happening, as much as I'd like it to.
The thought of never seeing some of these people again just won't process in my brain. I know we all must go off into the world, and move on, but I'm not ready yet.
That's why I think all the stupid drama bullshit should stop. We all got in so many fights, and things happened this year that was actually worse than other years. At the beginning of the year, we promised each other we wouldn't fight, or cause drama. Yet we do it everyday and let it occur in our lives.
If you don't like somebody, fine. Don't like them.
But if you don't like them, don't talk to them.
Don't talk about them. When you bring them up, and say how much you hate them and how they're so ________ just stop. People don't want to hear it. It's annoying, and not worth talking about.
Stop trying to start a fight with others when there's no reason at all to have one.
I don't want to spend the rest of my Senior year worrying about people fighting, who hates who, and who I "can't/shouldn't" talk to.
I'm a people person, and I like to be friends with everyone.
If someone doesn't like me, whatever. It's not that big of a loss to me.
But I don't want to lose friends I DO have and DO like over something stupid that didn't even have to happen in the first place.
I also want to let everyone know that I don't want to get involved in anything else this year. I'm going to stop arguing with people and try to maintain a pleasant attitude.
I know that I'm always hard on myself and I have little self-esteem, but I decided not to be this way anymore. I was always in a bad mood because of it, and my attitude would reflect on others. I didn't want them to deal with my complaining and negative attitude. I knew they didn't want to be around me when I acted like that, either.
Over the past few days (since Tuesday night) I've stopped being so hard my myself, and maintained a positive attitude. I've been in a great mood since then. It feels really good.
By doing this, I know that I'm happy.
From now on, I'm going to enjoy my life as it is. I understand now if I/it were anyway different, then I just wouldn't be me. I'm going to be happy with what I have.
We only have two months of our Senior year left, then we're all leaving.
I suggest we all enjoy it as much as we can, without any regrets.
I don't know if you guys will agree with me, or will want to do what I wrote about, but this is just what I think. I just wanted to say it to everyone, even if it is only in a livejournal entry. Also cross-posted in a myspace blog. But w/e...lol.
"there's plenty of people who don't like me
but there's ten times more who love me
and I love myself
sometimes, it gets tough
but I can't give up
just take a deep breath, close my eyes
feel the love and give a smile."
"It's me, I just wanna be happy
today is the day I am willing to say
I will put all the past behind me, no more enemies
ready cause I'm living in this world
I wanna make a change. gonna make a change
and put on my happy face."
"Happy Face" - Destiny's Child