Hungry, hungry hippos!
So on Sunday, while I was in the depths of despair, I got a message of facebook from an acquaintance named Jordan. Jordan and I went to about three football games together five years ago, we had a movie night at James' once, and I happened to see him twice last fall. That is the sum total of my experience with him, prior to my breakup. The week of my breakup, he sent me a really sweet note saying he's been through a breakup before and he's happy now, so I'll make it, too. It meant a lot to me. On Sunday, he said he was hosting a game night on Wednesday and I should come to help get my mind off things.
One thing I can say about this breakup: God is proving to me over and over again how much He loves me. Derek took me to Divine Comedy; Jordan invited me to this game night; I have a cohort to teach when I couldn't; Annalisse helped me buy mice and gave me a wonderful hand massage; Joran talked to me on the phone for an hour; Jill talked to me on the phone; Melinda invited me to Salt Lake and helped me finish my PJs; Meg is turning into a wonderful friend, and she left a really sweet note on my windshield yesterday; Wesley took me to the bookstore and just talked to me; Eliza has come running every time I asked her; my roommates vociferously took my side; Beth has offered to burn things in effigy with me in the backyard; our fridge curses Derrick's name, and I kind of like it; my kid's have offered various forms on retribution; Allison's mom made me chocolate chipless chocolate chip cookies and bought me flowers; my momma flew down just to spend the weekend with me; my bishop has helped me; our computer teacher has been on my side; everyone tells me he's a moron; I'd had some wonderful blessings; the Temple has never been so peaceful; Johanna has listened to me every time I need to talk; Shannon has fed me and talked to me; Momma made food for me that is still taking me through lunches; Eliza has fed me; heck, even Boy Who Smiles fed me.
I'm sure there are even more good things that have happened. I feel truly, truly blessed. This may have been a miserable spell in my life, but everything else in my life has been nonmiserable. God has heard my cries and blessed me.
That said, I tentatively say the miserable spell has ended. I still miss the boy a lot more than I should (I was taking notes today in my teacher training class, and THREE TIMES almost wrote "I miss him" at the end of a sentence, even though I hadn't been thinking about him), but I've been happy the last couple of days. There was sunshine today, which did wonders for my mood. I also dropped $130 at the bookstore, which filled me with joy. My appetite has come back (sorry, Eliza; didn't realize I'd want to eat that much yesterday) and I plan on reading a book as soon as I have a spare second (I hate the parent teacher conferences!) I can't say I'm reading again until I've started reading, but I'm actively planning on reading, so I say it's a pretty good bet that it will happen.
I still have no idea what the future holds, but I'm going to make it through this in one piece. I'm so grateful for all the help I've been given, and I'm grateful God watches out for me, even in my darkest moments.
And I just realized I started this entry by talking about the game night, which I did indeed attend. It was quite enjoyable. We played one game called Rampaging Rhinos, which was vaguely reminiscent of Hungry, Hungry Hippos, mostly because it was plastic and geared towards the same age group. It was a lot of fun. I also met one girl, Monica, who looked very familiar to me. Turns out she used to live in Centennial and knows Matthew. I love making random connections.
Life is looking up; I pray it keeps going up.
"God is good, God is good, God is so good, He's so good to me." ~~song from Bible Camp
One thing I can say about this breakup: God is proving to me over and over again how much He loves me. Derek took me to Divine Comedy; Jordan invited me to this game night; I have a cohort to teach when I couldn't; Annalisse helped me buy mice and gave me a wonderful hand massage; Joran talked to me on the phone for an hour; Jill talked to me on the phone; Melinda invited me to Salt Lake and helped me finish my PJs; Meg is turning into a wonderful friend, and she left a really sweet note on my windshield yesterday; Wesley took me to the bookstore and just talked to me; Eliza has come running every time I asked her; my roommates vociferously took my side; Beth has offered to burn things in effigy with me in the backyard; our fridge curses Derrick's name, and I kind of like it; my kid's have offered various forms on retribution; Allison's mom made me chocolate chipless chocolate chip cookies and bought me flowers; my momma flew down just to spend the weekend with me; my bishop has helped me; our computer teacher has been on my side; everyone tells me he's a moron; I'd had some wonderful blessings; the Temple has never been so peaceful; Johanna has listened to me every time I need to talk; Shannon has fed me and talked to me; Momma made food for me that is still taking me through lunches; Eliza has fed me; heck, even Boy Who Smiles fed me.
I'm sure there are even more good things that have happened. I feel truly, truly blessed. This may have been a miserable spell in my life, but everything else in my life has been nonmiserable. God has heard my cries and blessed me.
That said, I tentatively say the miserable spell has ended. I still miss the boy a lot more than I should (I was taking notes today in my teacher training class, and THREE TIMES almost wrote "I miss him" at the end of a sentence, even though I hadn't been thinking about him), but I've been happy the last couple of days. There was sunshine today, which did wonders for my mood. I also dropped $130 at the bookstore, which filled me with joy. My appetite has come back (sorry, Eliza; didn't realize I'd want to eat that much yesterday) and I plan on reading a book as soon as I have a spare second (I hate the parent teacher conferences!) I can't say I'm reading again until I've started reading, but I'm actively planning on reading, so I say it's a pretty good bet that it will happen.
I still have no idea what the future holds, but I'm going to make it through this in one piece. I'm so grateful for all the help I've been given, and I'm grateful God watches out for me, even in my darkest moments.
And I just realized I started this entry by talking about the game night, which I did indeed attend. It was quite enjoyable. We played one game called Rampaging Rhinos, which was vaguely reminiscent of Hungry, Hungry Hippos, mostly because it was plastic and geared towards the same age group. It was a lot of fun. I also met one girl, Monica, who looked very familiar to me. Turns out she used to live in Centennial and knows Matthew. I love making random connections.
Life is looking up; I pray it keeps going up.
"God is good, God is good, God is so good, He's so good to me." ~~song from Bible Camp