It's like riding on an open highway
I haven't been this good about updating since I was in New York, but I suddenly have nothing to do in the evenings before bed except facebook stalk and ramble on.
Parent Teacher conferences were today. I had nineteen parents show up. It was a pretty good showing, methinks, although I had no parents (not a single one) between 5 and 7:30, and and then suddenly one last straggler parent showed up. Good thing I keep my conferences short. I don't believe in talking to fifteen minutes if there isn't a problem, and if there is a problem, I've probably already spoken to the parent over the phone anyway.
Also, I would like to take a moment and point out that my student who hated me and tried to change classes (not to be confused with the student who DID change classes because "I yelled too much") has completely changed her tune. Mom visited with me today and thanked me for being a wonderful teacher. Take that.
Since the BYU game went on during PTC, my principal hooked up the gym's projector so we could all watch the game (I was already watching it in HD on my puter). Sadly, we lost, but it was fun being in a gym full of people who cared.
I've decided I'm bipolar when it come to Boy Who Smiles. I vacillate (apparently can't spell that word) between loving him and hating him, both with equal fervor. One minute I'm singing breakup songs like Stronger by Britney Spears and Get Out of My Head (is that what it's called?) by Sugarland, and the next I'm singing love songs like How I Am from Little Women and the next next I'm singing depressing breakup love songs like Breakeven by The Script.
But hey, at least I'm singing! This is an improvement!
Did I mention that my appetite came back? *checks* Yup. Although I kind of enjoyed the whole not-eating thing. It made meal prep MUCH easier.
And I just realized I have nothing to eat for lunch tomorrow and I ran out of applesauce today. Curses! Do I even have any readymade foods...? Hey, don't I have those crackers that I left at Boy Who Smiles' house? *checks* Yup. Okay, so I've got cheese and crackers. And chips. And an apple. I'll make it until I go to the store.
Ugh. Food shopping without Boy Who Smiles. I don't remember how to do that.
We had our Relief Society birthday party tonight. Johanna and I were late due to PTCs, but we did make it. I was talking to Megan afterwards, and we talked about boys we're in love with but aren't with. She said she needs hers to dump his girlfriend and marry her. I told her I need mine to take his head out of his butt and marry me. She gave me a look and said, "But really, do you want him after his head's been there? Really? Think about it!" And I must say, she has a point!
So in the best of times, I love sad breakup songs. They just resonate with me. But now that I'm in a sad breakup, they just make me cry. ...Which is why I'm listening to Breakeven right now. "What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you..." Actually, I figure this is a sign that I'm getting better, because I'm willingly listening to depressing songs and enjoying them again.
On the night I got dumped, when I got in the car, I desperately needed something to fill the void, so I turned on Little Women and listened to the song where Jo is singing about Laurie proposing. "I thought I knew him; thought that he knew me. When did it change, what did I miss? A kiss, when I thought all along that we were meant to fight frontiers! How could I be so wrong?" (prepare for a lyric dump)
I thought home was all I'd ever want
My attic all I'd ever need.
Now nothing feels the way it was before
And I don't know how to proceed.
I only know I'm meant for something more
I've got to know if I can be
Astonishing
There's a life
That I am meant to lead
A life like nothing I have known
I can feel it
And it's far from here
I've got to find it on my own
Even now I feel its heat upon my skin.
A life of passion that pulls me from within,
A life that I am making to begin.
There must be somewhere I can be
Astonishing
Astonishing
I'll find my way
I'll find it far away
I'll find it in unexpected and unknown
I'll find my life in my own way
Today
Here I go
And there's no turning back
My great adventure has begun
I may be small
But I've got giant plans
To shine as brightly as the sun
I will blaze until I find my time and place
I will be fearless,
Surrendering modesty and grace
I will not disappear without a trace
I'll shout and start a riot
Be anything but quiet
Christopher Columbus
I'll be astonishing
Astonishing
Astonishing
At Last
I cried my way through the whole song, of course, but I also drew strength from it. I will be astonishing; if I'm not going to get what I expected, then I will shine as brightly as the sun anyway. There has to be something great for me out there; I just haven't found it yet.
But I will. Because men are that they might have joy, and joy I will have.
"You make me smile, you make me laugh, you make me care.
How can I explain inside my heart I feel a pain when you're not there?" ~~A Small Umbrella
Parent Teacher conferences were today. I had nineteen parents show up. It was a pretty good showing, methinks, although I had no parents (not a single one) between 5 and 7:30, and and then suddenly one last straggler parent showed up. Good thing I keep my conferences short. I don't believe in talking to fifteen minutes if there isn't a problem, and if there is a problem, I've probably already spoken to the parent over the phone anyway.
Also, I would like to take a moment and point out that my student who hated me and tried to change classes (not to be confused with the student who DID change classes because "I yelled too much") has completely changed her tune. Mom visited with me today and thanked me for being a wonderful teacher. Take that.
Since the BYU game went on during PTC, my principal hooked up the gym's projector so we could all watch the game (I was already watching it in HD on my puter). Sadly, we lost, but it was fun being in a gym full of people who cared.
I've decided I'm bipolar when it come to Boy Who Smiles. I vacillate (apparently can't spell that word) between loving him and hating him, both with equal fervor. One minute I'm singing breakup songs like Stronger by Britney Spears and Get Out of My Head (is that what it's called?) by Sugarland, and the next I'm singing love songs like How I Am from Little Women and the next next I'm singing depressing breakup love songs like Breakeven by The Script.
But hey, at least I'm singing! This is an improvement!
Did I mention that my appetite came back? *checks* Yup. Although I kind of enjoyed the whole not-eating thing. It made meal prep MUCH easier.
And I just realized I have nothing to eat for lunch tomorrow and I ran out of applesauce today. Curses! Do I even have any readymade foods...? Hey, don't I have those crackers that I left at Boy Who Smiles' house? *checks* Yup. Okay, so I've got cheese and crackers. And chips. And an apple. I'll make it until I go to the store.
Ugh. Food shopping without Boy Who Smiles. I don't remember how to do that.
We had our Relief Society birthday party tonight. Johanna and I were late due to PTCs, but we did make it. I was talking to Megan afterwards, and we talked about boys we're in love with but aren't with. She said she needs hers to dump his girlfriend and marry her. I told her I need mine to take his head out of his butt and marry me. She gave me a look and said, "But really, do you want him after his head's been there? Really? Think about it!" And I must say, she has a point!
So in the best of times, I love sad breakup songs. They just resonate with me. But now that I'm in a sad breakup, they just make me cry. ...Which is why I'm listening to Breakeven right now. "What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you..." Actually, I figure this is a sign that I'm getting better, because I'm willingly listening to depressing songs and enjoying them again.
On the night I got dumped, when I got in the car, I desperately needed something to fill the void, so I turned on Little Women and listened to the song where Jo is singing about Laurie proposing. "I thought I knew him; thought that he knew me. When did it change, what did I miss? A kiss, when I thought all along that we were meant to fight frontiers! How could I be so wrong?" (prepare for a lyric dump)
I thought home was all I'd ever want
My attic all I'd ever need.
Now nothing feels the way it was before
And I don't know how to proceed.
I only know I'm meant for something more
I've got to know if I can be
Astonishing
There's a life
That I am meant to lead
A life like nothing I have known
I can feel it
And it's far from here
I've got to find it on my own
Even now I feel its heat upon my skin.
A life of passion that pulls me from within,
A life that I am making to begin.
There must be somewhere I can be
Astonishing
Astonishing
I'll find my way
I'll find it far away
I'll find it in unexpected and unknown
I'll find my life in my own way
Today
Here I go
And there's no turning back
My great adventure has begun
I may be small
But I've got giant plans
To shine as brightly as the sun
I will blaze until I find my time and place
I will be fearless,
Surrendering modesty and grace
I will not disappear without a trace
I'll shout and start a riot
Be anything but quiet
Christopher Columbus
I'll be astonishing
Astonishing
Astonishing
At Last
I cried my way through the whole song, of course, but I also drew strength from it. I will be astonishing; if I'm not going to get what I expected, then I will shine as brightly as the sun anyway. There has to be something great for me out there; I just haven't found it yet.
But I will. Because men are that they might have joy, and joy I will have.
"You make me smile, you make me laugh, you make me care.
How can I explain inside my heart I feel a pain when you're not there?" ~~A Small Umbrella