In My Heart (Ending)
Title: In My Heart (13/13)
Pairing: Minho/Taemin
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG 15
Summary: Minho let himself fall in love with Shin Taemin, hoping that it would make him forget about Lee Taemin. Would it be in this case?
A/N: UN-BETA!
In My Room: 1 2 3 4
In My Heart : 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12
-Minho POV-
I pressed the doorbell a couple of times, waiting for him to answer the door. It’s not like him at all. I took out the backup key he gave me. I unlocked the door and went in. Looking at the number of shoes on the floor, he’s not home yet. Where could he be then?
“Taemin?” I did a quick look around the house and nothing seemed to be out of place. Where could he be? Maybe he’s dancing again and didn’t see my message. Right… It an excuse I gave myself to get rid of this uneasy feelings. Please… Let nothing happen to Taemin. Let this be just my imaginative feelings. Because this scenario was too familiar, that I’m afraid...
I kept running and running around the whole building, hoping to find him standing there smiling at me again but to no avail. He’s not even in the studio. Taemin, please pick up your phone. I got out of the building, re-dialing his number again, but this time round, I heard someone’s phone ringing. Isn’t this Taemin’s ringtone?
I looked around on the ground; his phone was one the floor. I remembered that keychain. I quickly picked it up. It was really his phone…. 50 miss call from me. Taemin… Taemin… Where are you? Why? Why is this happening again?
“The police found him in an abandon house. When they found Taemin, he was already covered with wounds and found unconscious. ..” He cleared his throat once and started talking again.
Where are you Taemin? Where?
“He… he… was raped…” A moment of silence. I was right. This wounds, was the same in my dream. The crying face of Taeminnie.. This means that I had actually witness him being rape in front of my very eyes… and yet I can’t do anything about it. I hated myself, why didn’t I go and find him? I even allow him to bear this kind of pain. Do I even worthy enough to love him, to protect him?
Why didn’t they manage to catch all the people who hurt Lee Taemin? Why does it have to hurt Shin Taemin now? Why does it have to happen again? I don’t this…. I don’t want this. Why must it always happen to the people I love?
TAEMIN! Come back... Please come back! Please be fine. Please…
-Shin Taemin POV-
I regained my conscious; I don’t know how long I have been unconscious. I only know fear has slowly crept into me. I wanted to move my arms, only to know my hands were tied. Where’s Minho? I remembered I’m on my way home.
Where am I? Why am I in this rundown house? It was unusually quiet. Am I been kidnapped? I heard noises coming out from behind the curtain. I wanted to move myself, but my hands and legs were all tied up. I couldn’t move at all. Then the person came out from behind the curtain… I was utterly shocked.
“Hyung?”
Lee Taemin’s memory flooding in my mind… How the whole incident happened, it’s clearly in my mind. I could feel his pain once again. The fear of being restricted and tied up, my body started to tremble… Minho... Help me… The place I’m right now, was different from where they kept Lee Taemin. I was in a hotel room from the way I looked at it. The room was well furnished.
Someone came out from the bathroom, only wearing a bathroom robe. That face… He’s one of the people but why was he so special in Taemin’s memory? Why didn’t Taemin struggle when he touched him? I tried to search for him in Taemin’s memory, but why was it so hard?
“My dear Taemin. Welcome back to my side.” His creepy voice that runs shivers down my spine… I finally know who he was. He’s someone that was once so important in his life.
“Taesun Hyung…” He smirked as I called his name. If I’m not wrong, he’s Taemin’s older brother. Taesun. He moved towards the bed, I move back a little. He sat on the bedside and looked at me so lovingly. It was so different from the pair of eyes that Taemin see at that time, when he finally broke out from that nice brother look and into a monstrous face.
“I’m so glad you are right back in my side.” He touched my face, that cold hand touched my face. I flinched away a little.
“Don’t worry, this time round, I won’t bring any other people in. There will only me. I won’t let any other guy touches your body. Not even, Minho.” Did he mistake me as Lee Taemin? Did he do anything to Minho hyung? I guess not, if not he would be using Minho hyung to tell me to do things…
“I’m not Lee Taemin. I’m Shin Taemin.” He smiled so lovingly that gives a chill to my heart.
“Taemin-ah. Don’t lie. Okay? Or I will get mad.” He smiled as if he was joking but his voice was different.
“I’m really not him.” This time round I was softer.
“Of course you are him. You even know my name. After Taemin died you appeared. How can you not be him?” He combed my hair with his fingers. I didn’t want to look straight into his eyes, I looked a little lower… Wait, was he sexually attracted to Lee Taemin? He was in love with his own little brother….
“I’m really not him… Let me go.” I struggled a little. He took out a knife from the drawer. I was scared to stiff.
Minho… Help me… Minho…
-Minho POV-
It has been a day since your disappearance. Taemin, where are you? I’m hoping is just some simple kidnapper who wants money from your rich dad and mom. Nothing more… Please don’t be the same person who took away Taeminnie from me. Why, why does heaven keep taking away the person I love? Please. I’m afraid to lose him. I afraid to lose someone I love again.
I felt someone tapped on my shoulder, I looked back to see Key worried face.
“Minho, I found this in the letter box.” Key quickly passed the enveloped to me. It tore open the letter to see a CD in it. I quickly switch on my laptop. There was a video file in it. Video…
“Minho, hurry up and see it.” I hesitated to click it. I’m afraid. I’m afraid the same thing will happen again. Why does it have to happen when I decided to let go of Lee Taemin and love Shin Taemin? Why?
I double clicked the video. My tears immediately fall a few second after the video is played. That anguished wailing. He was calling for help. Key covered his mouth as he watched the video. The sight was unbearable. It was exactly like that dream… But this time round… It’s not just a dream… It’s true. It’s true that he’s calling for help.
“Slut! If you want to play rough, I’ll play with you.” he smirked and pinned Taeminnie on the bed. The guy started licking and sucking on Taemin’s neck… His other hands were running all over Taemin’s body, touching Taemin sensitive parts. He kissed him roughly on the lips, when Taemin wanted to scream for help again, that guy forced his tongue into his mouth, silencing him. Tears poured down his cheeks, as he tried to push and pull away from the seemingly possessed man with all his might.
“GET OFF!” I went forward but I couldn’t move…. I kept shouting but it doesn’t seem to get into his ear. He pulls off Taemin’s last clothing…Taemin wailing for help, tears were flowing down his face. Taemin! Taemin!
Taemin...
That bastard! Why didn’t he turn around! Why can’t I see his face. The next scene he turned to walked to the camera… Wait… Taemin’s brother? Taesun? It was the last part before the video ends. No wonder…. No wonder Taeminnie never remembered his brother… No wonder doctor said that he lost his memories…
My phone vibrated as I received a message. It was from an unknown number.
-Taemin POV-
I clutched my shoulder tightly… Minho hyung would have seen it right now, isn’t it? Minho wouldn’t want me right now, isn’t it?
He used the knife to cut open my shirt. I didn’t dare to move at all, I’m afraid it might cut me. He caress on my skin, I shut my eyes tightly. He then cut away my bottom clothing and then threw it aside. I felt exposed.
“Don’t worry, I’ll make you feel really good.” He whispered in my ears and then crawled on top of me. His tongue trailed on my neck. I struggled away.
“Go away!” The feeling of him touching me, it is totally different from the way Minho touches me. I felt disgusted and dirty. I started kicking around but he grabbed on my thighs and pin it down, spreading it wide. The next thing I know was something wet was touching my private areas. I squeaked at the touch. He was deep throating it.
“Get off me. Don’t.” No matter how I moved and struggled I felt as if energy was draining out from me. Don’t… Get away… Don’t touch me…. I hated myself for responding to him. I hated the way my body responded.
“You’re lying, Taeminnie. See how truthful your body is.” I tried to hold back my moans as he continued pumping.
“Nnnghh…” a moaned escaped from my mouth… I cursed myself.
“Then I shall punish you for lying.” What? What was he trying to do? I felt a sharp pain at my ass. No! No!
“Go away! Get off me!” I literally screamed for helped. I can’t let other man touched me, only Minho can… No…
A tear gently slipped along my cheek. It’s too late now. It’s all too late now… Taesun was back from outside and went to take a shower in the bathroom… He already untied me from the bed. Even if I want to escape, I don’t have clothes to wear on to run away… Minho… Can you save me from this pain? I don’t want to stay here… I don’t want to see that man.
Minho… Where are you? I want to see you… I want to be in your arms.
I want you to tell me everything is okay now. I want to hear your voice again.
I saw a handphone on the table. I reached out and grabbed the phone. There was signal on the phone. I just have to message Minho my current position and he can come bring me away from this horror. I remembered this hotel name but what is the room number?
“Trying to message Minho?” I dropped the phone on the floor. It’s him again. I thought he would hit me, but no… He picked the phone up and looked at the screen before he put it in my hand.
“Come, message him and tell him where you are. This is room 718.” Why was he allowing me to message Minho? What was his motive?
“No energy? Let me do it for you.” He took it away and started keying the information and sending it to Minho. Why was he so kind to help me?
-3rd Person POV-
“Done. Now, before he arrives. Let us continue our little game, shall we? I prepared a little something.” He pulled out a gun. Taemin wanted to run away but I felt weak. He wasn’t give any food at all, all he was given was water for his thirst. He pushed Taemin down on the bed, back facing him. He took the bottle of lube and spread a generous amount on the gun opening.
Without preparing Taemin, he thrust the gun into his asshole, Taemin squirmed at the cold contact. Taesun doesn’t need to restrict Taemin at all.
“Please… Let me go…” Taemin was already in tears. He really wants to run away but he’s afraid. He masturbated as he thrust in and out of Taemin. His sick mindset, no one would be able to understand it at all.
As he orgasm, he pulled the trigger.
-Minho POV-
I was running along with the police and soon we reached the destination. Please Taemin. Please… Please be alive. They started slamming on the door to burst through it. I ran in with them, hoping to see My Taemin safe in there…. But wishes are forever to be crushed.
I promise, no matter what condition you are in, I’ll be there to for you forever.
I knelt down on the floor as I see that awful scene right in front of me. His blood was staining on the white bedsheet. Taemin… I’m too late… I walked on my kneecap towards him.
“Taemin-ah…” I never know my voice could be that shaky…
“Taemin-ah…” I touched his cheek, which was wet with tears. I shook him a little to wake him… He’s sleeping, right?
“Haha… Taemin is only mine forever.” Taesun was pinned down by the police but was still laughing in victory.
“Taemin-ah… Please, wake up.” I wiped those tears on his cheek, hoping he would open his eyes.
“Taemin-ah…” I pressed his head on my shoulder as I hugged him tightly in my arms. Don’t worry… Everything is over now… You won’t get hurt anymore… Even if my body were stained in your blood, I don’t care. I just want to give you the warmth you should feel in my embrace.
I just want to remember how it feels like to have you in my arms. I don’t want to ever forget it…
Taemin, you’ll forever be in my heart…
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Big thanks to Choo_Hee and twinnie happyyoyo :D Thanks for always being there for me bb :D
niny_chan & minami_jklee for translating my fic :DDD THANK YOU SO MUCHIE!!!
Thanks for all those who read both In My Room and In My Heart!
And commenting all these while :DDD
Thank you for using your time to read this :D
Okay Don’t kill me, stab me, kick me. >.< Sorry that there’s no happy ending.
* Gives tissue. *
Actually it wasn't that sad as I expected it to be though... >.<
16 October 2010 - 19 August 2010 (actually I finished writing on 16 and I dragged for a few days)
Anyway, the date I take would be the I first post and the date I last posted.
It’s about a 11 months and 3 days…
Maybe I should try detective soon :D
Since I have actually my idea already kekeke just that I need more…
http://www.mediafire.com/?1ouz4ikaghfb669 - In My Room PDF
http://www.mediafire.com/?51726vlaxcifj9a - In My Heart PDF
Both PDF is edited and with less spelling error, format error. With a few scene changed here and there.
Hope you like it :D
Pairing: Minho/Taemin
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG 15
Summary: Minho let himself fall in love with Shin Taemin, hoping that it would make him forget about Lee Taemin. Would it be in this case?
A/N: UN-BETA!
In My Room: 1 2 3 4
In My Heart : 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12
-Minho POV-
I pressed the doorbell a couple of times, waiting for him to answer the door. It’s not like him at all. I took out the backup key he gave me. I unlocked the door and went in. Looking at the number of shoes on the floor, he’s not home yet. Where could he be then?
“Taemin?” I did a quick look around the house and nothing seemed to be out of place. Where could he be? Maybe he’s dancing again and didn’t see my message. Right… It an excuse I gave myself to get rid of this uneasy feelings. Please… Let nothing happen to Taemin. Let this be just my imaginative feelings. Because this scenario was too familiar, that I’m afraid...
I kept running and running around the whole building, hoping to find him standing there smiling at me again but to no avail. He’s not even in the studio. Taemin, please pick up your phone. I got out of the building, re-dialing his number again, but this time round, I heard someone’s phone ringing. Isn’t this Taemin’s ringtone?
I looked around on the ground; his phone was one the floor. I remembered that keychain. I quickly picked it up. It was really his phone…. 50 miss call from me. Taemin… Taemin… Where are you? Why? Why is this happening again?
“The police found him in an abandon house. When they found Taemin, he was already covered with wounds and found unconscious. ..” He cleared his throat once and started talking again.
Where are you Taemin? Where?
“He… he… was raped…” A moment of silence. I was right. This wounds, was the same in my dream. The crying face of Taeminnie.. This means that I had actually witness him being rape in front of my very eyes… and yet I can’t do anything about it. I hated myself, why didn’t I go and find him? I even allow him to bear this kind of pain. Do I even worthy enough to love him, to protect him?
Why didn’t they manage to catch all the people who hurt Lee Taemin? Why does it have to hurt Shin Taemin now? Why does it have to happen again? I don’t this…. I don’t want this. Why must it always happen to the people I love?
TAEMIN! Come back... Please come back! Please be fine. Please…
-Shin Taemin POV-
I regained my conscious; I don’t know how long I have been unconscious. I only know fear has slowly crept into me. I wanted to move my arms, only to know my hands were tied. Where’s Minho? I remembered I’m on my way home.
Where am I? Why am I in this rundown house? It was unusually quiet. Am I been kidnapped? I heard noises coming out from behind the curtain. I wanted to move myself, but my hands and legs were all tied up. I couldn’t move at all. Then the person came out from behind the curtain… I was utterly shocked.
“Hyung?”
Lee Taemin’s memory flooding in my mind… How the whole incident happened, it’s clearly in my mind. I could feel his pain once again. The fear of being restricted and tied up, my body started to tremble… Minho... Help me… The place I’m right now, was different from where they kept Lee Taemin. I was in a hotel room from the way I looked at it. The room was well furnished.
Someone came out from the bathroom, only wearing a bathroom robe. That face… He’s one of the people but why was he so special in Taemin’s memory? Why didn’t Taemin struggle when he touched him? I tried to search for him in Taemin’s memory, but why was it so hard?
“My dear Taemin. Welcome back to my side.” His creepy voice that runs shivers down my spine… I finally know who he was. He’s someone that was once so important in his life.
“Taesun Hyung…” He smirked as I called his name. If I’m not wrong, he’s Taemin’s older brother. Taesun. He moved towards the bed, I move back a little. He sat on the bedside and looked at me so lovingly. It was so different from the pair of eyes that Taemin see at that time, when he finally broke out from that nice brother look and into a monstrous face.
“I’m so glad you are right back in my side.” He touched my face, that cold hand touched my face. I flinched away a little.
“Don’t worry, this time round, I won’t bring any other people in. There will only me. I won’t let any other guy touches your body. Not even, Minho.” Did he mistake me as Lee Taemin? Did he do anything to Minho hyung? I guess not, if not he would be using Minho hyung to tell me to do things…
“I’m not Lee Taemin. I’m Shin Taemin.” He smiled so lovingly that gives a chill to my heart.
“Taemin-ah. Don’t lie. Okay? Or I will get mad.” He smiled as if he was joking but his voice was different.
“I’m really not him.” This time round I was softer.
“Of course you are him. You even know my name. After Taemin died you appeared. How can you not be him?” He combed my hair with his fingers. I didn’t want to look straight into his eyes, I looked a little lower… Wait, was he sexually attracted to Lee Taemin? He was in love with his own little brother….
“I’m really not him… Let me go.” I struggled a little. He took out a knife from the drawer. I was scared to stiff.
Minho… Help me… Minho…
-Minho POV-
It has been a day since your disappearance. Taemin, where are you? I’m hoping is just some simple kidnapper who wants money from your rich dad and mom. Nothing more… Please don’t be the same person who took away Taeminnie from me. Why, why does heaven keep taking away the person I love? Please. I’m afraid to lose him. I afraid to lose someone I love again.
I felt someone tapped on my shoulder, I looked back to see Key worried face.
“Minho, I found this in the letter box.” Key quickly passed the enveloped to me. It tore open the letter to see a CD in it. I quickly switch on my laptop. There was a video file in it. Video…
“Minho, hurry up and see it.” I hesitated to click it. I’m afraid. I’m afraid the same thing will happen again. Why does it have to happen when I decided to let go of Lee Taemin and love Shin Taemin? Why?
I double clicked the video. My tears immediately fall a few second after the video is played. That anguished wailing. He was calling for help. Key covered his mouth as he watched the video. The sight was unbearable. It was exactly like that dream… But this time round… It’s not just a dream… It’s true. It’s true that he’s calling for help.
“Slut! If you want to play rough, I’ll play with you.” he smirked and pinned Taeminnie on the bed. The guy started licking and sucking on Taemin’s neck… His other hands were running all over Taemin’s body, touching Taemin sensitive parts. He kissed him roughly on the lips, when Taemin wanted to scream for help again, that guy forced his tongue into his mouth, silencing him. Tears poured down his cheeks, as he tried to push and pull away from the seemingly possessed man with all his might.
“GET OFF!” I went forward but I couldn’t move…. I kept shouting but it doesn’t seem to get into his ear. He pulls off Taemin’s last clothing…Taemin wailing for help, tears were flowing down his face. Taemin! Taemin!
Taemin...
That bastard! Why didn’t he turn around! Why can’t I see his face. The next scene he turned to walked to the camera… Wait… Taemin’s brother? Taesun? It was the last part before the video ends. No wonder…. No wonder Taeminnie never remembered his brother… No wonder doctor said that he lost his memories…
My phone vibrated as I received a message. It was from an unknown number.
-Taemin POV-
I clutched my shoulder tightly… Minho hyung would have seen it right now, isn’t it? Minho wouldn’t want me right now, isn’t it?
He used the knife to cut open my shirt. I didn’t dare to move at all, I’m afraid it might cut me. He caress on my skin, I shut my eyes tightly. He then cut away my bottom clothing and then threw it aside. I felt exposed.
“Don’t worry, I’ll make you feel really good.” He whispered in my ears and then crawled on top of me. His tongue trailed on my neck. I struggled away.
“Go away!” The feeling of him touching me, it is totally different from the way Minho touches me. I felt disgusted and dirty. I started kicking around but he grabbed on my thighs and pin it down, spreading it wide. The next thing I know was something wet was touching my private areas. I squeaked at the touch. He was deep throating it.
“Get off me. Don’t.” No matter how I moved and struggled I felt as if energy was draining out from me. Don’t… Get away… Don’t touch me…. I hated myself for responding to him. I hated the way my body responded.
“You’re lying, Taeminnie. See how truthful your body is.” I tried to hold back my moans as he continued pumping.
“Nnnghh…” a moaned escaped from my mouth… I cursed myself.
“Then I shall punish you for lying.” What? What was he trying to do? I felt a sharp pain at my ass. No! No!
“Go away! Get off me!” I literally screamed for helped. I can’t let other man touched me, only Minho can… No…
A tear gently slipped along my cheek. It’s too late now. It’s all too late now… Taesun was back from outside and went to take a shower in the bathroom… He already untied me from the bed. Even if I want to escape, I don’t have clothes to wear on to run away… Minho… Can you save me from this pain? I don’t want to stay here… I don’t want to see that man.
Minho… Where are you? I want to see you… I want to be in your arms.
I want you to tell me everything is okay now. I want to hear your voice again.
I saw a handphone on the table. I reached out and grabbed the phone. There was signal on the phone. I just have to message Minho my current position and he can come bring me away from this horror. I remembered this hotel name but what is the room number?
“Trying to message Minho?” I dropped the phone on the floor. It’s him again. I thought he would hit me, but no… He picked the phone up and looked at the screen before he put it in my hand.
“Come, message him and tell him where you are. This is room 718.” Why was he allowing me to message Minho? What was his motive?
“No energy? Let me do it for you.” He took it away and started keying the information and sending it to Minho. Why was he so kind to help me?
-3rd Person POV-
“Done. Now, before he arrives. Let us continue our little game, shall we? I prepared a little something.” He pulled out a gun. Taemin wanted to run away but I felt weak. He wasn’t give any food at all, all he was given was water for his thirst. He pushed Taemin down on the bed, back facing him. He took the bottle of lube and spread a generous amount on the gun opening.
Without preparing Taemin, he thrust the gun into his asshole, Taemin squirmed at the cold contact. Taesun doesn’t need to restrict Taemin at all.
“Please… Let me go…” Taemin was already in tears. He really wants to run away but he’s afraid. He masturbated as he thrust in and out of Taemin. His sick mindset, no one would be able to understand it at all.
As he orgasm, he pulled the trigger.
-Minho POV-
I was running along with the police and soon we reached the destination. Please Taemin. Please… Please be alive. They started slamming on the door to burst through it. I ran in with them, hoping to see My Taemin safe in there…. But wishes are forever to be crushed.
I promise, no matter what condition you are in, I’ll be there to for you forever.
I knelt down on the floor as I see that awful scene right in front of me. His blood was staining on the white bedsheet. Taemin… I’m too late… I walked on my kneecap towards him.
“Taemin-ah…” I never know my voice could be that shaky…
“Taemin-ah…” I touched his cheek, which was wet with tears. I shook him a little to wake him… He’s sleeping, right?
“Haha… Taemin is only mine forever.” Taesun was pinned down by the police but was still laughing in victory.
“Taemin-ah… Please, wake up.” I wiped those tears on his cheek, hoping he would open his eyes.
“Taemin-ah…” I pressed his head on my shoulder as I hugged him tightly in my arms. Don’t worry… Everything is over now… You won’t get hurt anymore… Even if my body were stained in your blood, I don’t care. I just want to give you the warmth you should feel in my embrace.
I just want to remember how it feels like to have you in my arms. I don’t want to ever forget it…
Taemin, you’ll forever be in my heart…
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Big thanks to Choo_Hee and twinnie happyyoyo :D Thanks for always being there for me bb :D
niny_chan & minami_jklee for translating my fic :DDD THANK YOU SO MUCHIE!!!
Thanks for all those who read both In My Room and In My Heart!
And commenting all these while :DDD
Thank you for using your time to read this :D
Okay Don’t kill me, stab me, kick me. >.< Sorry that there’s no happy ending.
* Gives tissue. *
Actually it wasn't that sad as I expected it to be though... >.<
16 October 2010 - 19 August 2010 (actually I finished writing on 16 and I dragged for a few days)
Anyway, the date I take would be the I first post and the date I last posted.
It’s about a 11 months and 3 days…
Maybe I should try detective soon :D
Since I have actually my idea already kekeke just that I need more…
http://www.mediafire.com/?1ouz4ikaghfb669 - In My Room PDF
http://www.mediafire.com/?51726vlaxcifj9a - In My Heart PDF
Both PDF is edited and with less spelling error, format error. With a few scene changed here and there.
Hope you like it :D