In My Heart (11/13)
Title: In My Heart (11/13)
Pairing: Minho/Taemin
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG 15
Summary: Minho let himself fall in love with Shin Taemin, hoping that it would make him forget about Lee Taemin. Would it be in this case?
A/N: UN-BETA!
In My Room | Previous Chapter | Next Chapter
-Minho POV-
“Taemin, can you give me a chance to learn how to love you?” I didn’t given a second thought about this, I just want to make him stay. I don’t want him to leave my world. I can’t handle anymore, I just can’t…
“Minho…I…” I shut your mouth with my lips, I’m scared, Taemin… I’m scared that you’ll reject me.
Yesterday was like a dream to me, I’m back with Taemin… The feelings I have right now are kind of mixed. Am I really happy to move on but why am I feeling something else? Perhaps things happened too fast, my feelings haven’t move on yet. Soon… Soon I would feel like how I felt when I’m with Lee Taemin. That kind of blissful feeling that seemed to last forever but didn’t.
I overnight over Taemin’s house, holding him in my arms we both fall asleep. His body heat still lingers on my skin. He really gives off Lee Taemin’s scent. That night, I really thought I went back in time, back before that day happened but reality would never allowed that.
I woke up in a haze, to find myself not in my bed. I breathe in the same scent, I saw your sleeping face. Taeminnie… You’re back. Wait a minute, it Shin Taemin. It’s not Lee Taemin. I sniggered at my silliness. How could it be Taeminnie.
He woke me up in the morning, afraid that I might be late for class. I better get back home, I could already imagine Key nagging that I didn’t inform him that I’m not going home last night.
“I’m going off. Taemin, do you need a ride?” It was the first time I see him in black spectacle and normal t-shirt and jeans. I was taken aback. Seeing him working too much made me forget about the fact he was still a student.
“It’s okay, Minho. I can go there myself.” We both made it out of his apartment and down to the first floor.
“Minho hyung.” I turned to look at him, he tip his toes and kissed my cheek. I was surprised, never thought that he would do this kind of things. There was a lavender smell on him.
“Bye, Minho hyung.” He quickly ran off.
“I am sure! 100 percent sure.” I took a step towards him and hugged him tightly in my arms. I smelt the lavender shampoo he used.
“Take care, alright… You can call me anytime…” I whispered into his ears. I planted a light kiss on his forehead and then let go. He was smiling sweetly…
Why was I having this flashback? I’m with Shin Taemin now. Why were those horrible memories coming back? I don’t wish that anything bad will happen to him…
Maybe my decision to be with Taemin was right, he no longer wants to work for Heechul. He’s going to live a normal student life like how it should be. He will be studying and not running away from classes. He’s going be a good student. I’m really glad that I decided to love him.
He called me earlier, saying that he has a surprised for me. We are just like normal couple, from time to time giving each other little surprises. Luckily my lesson ended earlier than his, I can drive my way quickly there and don’t need to make him wait for me for too long.
Of course I no longer go to the bar to pick him up, I went to his school to pick him up.
I saw a familiar figure standing outside, Taemin? He was waving to me as the car came gently to a stop. He went to cut his hair and dye his hair blond. It is no longer that long hair Taemin… You are becoming more and more like Lee Taemin…
“Minho hyung!” He got in the car, my brain still didn’t register his look.
“Taemin, come! Let’s go home.” He got on the bicycle and wrapped his hands around my waist so that he won’t fall off.
“Let’s go home!” He cheered. I always love the way he would leaned on my back on the way home. Sometimes I would go a little fast to just have him holding onto me tighter so we will be a little closer.
“Hyung, you will hold traffic like this.” I nodded and quickly drive off. I also noticed that he no longer just calls me by my name, he adds a hyung or simply call me hyung. It’s not that I mind, it’s just… He changed. I don’t hate changes, I really don’t…
I’m just… I’m just not used to.
It seemed like the two different people I came to love to love in life has become the same person. Shin Taemin was becoming a replica of Lee Taemin.
I think I might be really falling in love with Shin Taemin. I’m used to giving small touches to him now. It’s no longer awkward to give sweet kisses on his forehead, it comes naturally. I don’t feel weird when he leaned on me for warm or snuggled close to me.
Perhaps he could really make me forget Lee Taemin.
Forget the person I was crazily in love before.
I decided to bring him to a dancing studio where he can still dance. I want to let him know, being with me doesn’t mean you have to give up his passion for dance. I am totally okay with him dancing but just not those exotic dance but it is okay if he dances only for me. Wait, what am I thinking?
I blindfold him, asking him to trust me as I bring him to somewhere special. He didn’t keep pestering the destination, he waited patiently like I told him to.
I lead him on that place, a special place where once it belongs to me and Taemin. I opened the door, and brought him to the middle of the room. I took off the blindfold.
He gaped in amazement. He turned around to see the place. He was amaze. I bet he never thought that I would bring him here.
I lead him from behind slowly and steady. I could see a bright smile on his face. I stopped him right in the middle of the room.
“You may now take off your blindfold.” He pulled away the blindfold and stared at the mirror in front of him in awe. I hugged him from behind, he was still standing at his position not trying to move away.
“Do you like it?” He nodded excitedly.
“You always have been finding places to practice your dance. Although it’s a place I rent, I promise that in future I would buy you one or make a room in our house to let you practice your dance.” I whispered in his ears. I just love his smile…
“Thanks hyung.” He turned around to hug me.
“Do you like it?” He nodded excitedly.
“I won’t stop you from dancing, dancing has always been your passion. I just want to let you know that, even though you are with me. I won’t stop you from dancing.” He hugged me tightly.
“Thanks hyung.” He buried his head on my chest.
I planned a shopping trip when we are both free during the weekend. Actually we have been spending most of the time together just like how I always spend time with Taeminnie.
He was wearing his hoodie cap over his head, we both were holding hands as we walked in the shopping mall. I heard some girls giggling near us.
“Such a cute couple. That girl is so cute.” I chortled, Taemin mistaken as a girl again. I see him pouting at me as he pull down his hoodie.
“My girlfriend.” I teased. He is just too cute.
“Hey! Minho.” I waved at my friend and he walked towards us. He noticed that I was holding hands with Taemin and smiled. Taemin wasn’t comfortable with someone looking at him. He then cover half of his face with his fringe.
“I didn’t know you have such a cute girlfriend.” Did he just mistaken Taeminnie as a girl? I tried to hold back my laughter.
“Anyway, just drop by to say hi! I’m off. Have fun dating!” He then walked away.
“Why am I the girl in the relationship? I’m a boy hyung…” He pouted. Aigooo, why is he so cute. I pinched his cheeks.
“Aigooo, so cute. It doesn’t matter who’s the girl or guy in the relationship, isn’t it?”
“Hyung, not fair. Why can’t you be mistaken as a girl for once?” I laughed at his comment.
“Cause I’m a man.”
It’s been about three months since I’m with Shin Taemin. I find myself enjoying those time. There isn’t one single bit of unhappiness. I’m always happy.
“Why are you smiling to yourself?”
“Nothing Key hyung. I’m thinking of some things.” Key sat down beside me, we both kept awfully quiet until he suddenly started speaking.
“Minho, are you really happy with Taemin?” The same question he asked when I was with Taeminnie.
“Of course I am.” I never have been happier.
“I got a feeling that you are using Shin Taemin as a substitution for Lee Taemin.” Of course not, I don’t think so.
“What makes you say that? Of course not.”
“I know, I’m not you but as an outsider. The more Taemin look like your Taeminnie, the more you will love him.” Is it really like that? No… It’s time that make me love him more/
“You even started buying clothes that Taeminnie likes for Shin Taemin. Don’t you find it ironic?” No, Taemin loves them. I’m not buying because Taeminnie likes them.
“Let me ask you. Do you know what Taemin’s favorite food is?”
“This is easy… It’s… It’s…” Why? Why can’t I name any?
“Minho. It’s better if you think about it. I don’t wish to see you both hurt.” He pats on my shoulder. Was I really doing it subconsciously? Am I really making Shin Taemin as a substitution?
I stood outside the studio, looking at you dancing in there. Am I… really treating you as Taeminnie? Am I loving you as who you are? Do I keep seeing you as Lee Taemin?
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Wakaka, I finally posted this!
I'm so happy and it almost reached 2k words!
That's why a originally part that should be included is not included.
Well, I hope that I will be able to go for SWC!!
I managed to recover a few almost completed fanfic even though I lost my thumbdrive.
But sadly, I still can't find Unspoken complete so going to re-write it.
Pairing: Minho/Taemin
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG 15
Summary: Minho let himself fall in love with Shin Taemin, hoping that it would make him forget about Lee Taemin. Would it be in this case?
A/N: UN-BETA!
In My Room | Previous Chapter | Next Chapter
-Minho POV-
“Taemin, can you give me a chance to learn how to love you?” I didn’t given a second thought about this, I just want to make him stay. I don’t want him to leave my world. I can’t handle anymore, I just can’t…
“Minho…I…” I shut your mouth with my lips, I’m scared, Taemin… I’m scared that you’ll reject me.
Yesterday was like a dream to me, I’m back with Taemin… The feelings I have right now are kind of mixed. Am I really happy to move on but why am I feeling something else? Perhaps things happened too fast, my feelings haven’t move on yet. Soon… Soon I would feel like how I felt when I’m with Lee Taemin. That kind of blissful feeling that seemed to last forever but didn’t.
I overnight over Taemin’s house, holding him in my arms we both fall asleep. His body heat still lingers on my skin. He really gives off Lee Taemin’s scent. That night, I really thought I went back in time, back before that day happened but reality would never allowed that.
I woke up in a haze, to find myself not in my bed. I breathe in the same scent, I saw your sleeping face. Taeminnie… You’re back. Wait a minute, it Shin Taemin. It’s not Lee Taemin. I sniggered at my silliness. How could it be Taeminnie.
He woke me up in the morning, afraid that I might be late for class. I better get back home, I could already imagine Key nagging that I didn’t inform him that I’m not going home last night.
“I’m going off. Taemin, do you need a ride?” It was the first time I see him in black spectacle and normal t-shirt and jeans. I was taken aback. Seeing him working too much made me forget about the fact he was still a student.
“It’s okay, Minho. I can go there myself.” We both made it out of his apartment and down to the first floor.
“Minho hyung.” I turned to look at him, he tip his toes and kissed my cheek. I was surprised, never thought that he would do this kind of things. There was a lavender smell on him.
“Bye, Minho hyung.” He quickly ran off.
“I am sure! 100 percent sure.” I took a step towards him and hugged him tightly in my arms. I smelt the lavender shampoo he used.
“Take care, alright… You can call me anytime…” I whispered into his ears. I planted a light kiss on his forehead and then let go. He was smiling sweetly…
Why was I having this flashback? I’m with Shin Taemin now. Why were those horrible memories coming back? I don’t wish that anything bad will happen to him…
Maybe my decision to be with Taemin was right, he no longer wants to work for Heechul. He’s going to live a normal student life like how it should be. He will be studying and not running away from classes. He’s going be a good student. I’m really glad that I decided to love him.
He called me earlier, saying that he has a surprised for me. We are just like normal couple, from time to time giving each other little surprises. Luckily my lesson ended earlier than his, I can drive my way quickly there and don’t need to make him wait for me for too long.
Of course I no longer go to the bar to pick him up, I went to his school to pick him up.
I saw a familiar figure standing outside, Taemin? He was waving to me as the car came gently to a stop. He went to cut his hair and dye his hair blond. It is no longer that long hair Taemin… You are becoming more and more like Lee Taemin…
“Minho hyung!” He got in the car, my brain still didn’t register his look.
“Taemin, come! Let’s go home.” He got on the bicycle and wrapped his hands around my waist so that he won’t fall off.
“Let’s go home!” He cheered. I always love the way he would leaned on my back on the way home. Sometimes I would go a little fast to just have him holding onto me tighter so we will be a little closer.
“Hyung, you will hold traffic like this.” I nodded and quickly drive off. I also noticed that he no longer just calls me by my name, he adds a hyung or simply call me hyung. It’s not that I mind, it’s just… He changed. I don’t hate changes, I really don’t…
I’m just… I’m just not used to.
It seemed like the two different people I came to love to love in life has become the same person. Shin Taemin was becoming a replica of Lee Taemin.
I think I might be really falling in love with Shin Taemin. I’m used to giving small touches to him now. It’s no longer awkward to give sweet kisses on his forehead, it comes naturally. I don’t feel weird when he leaned on me for warm or snuggled close to me.
Perhaps he could really make me forget Lee Taemin.
Forget the person I was crazily in love before.
I decided to bring him to a dancing studio where he can still dance. I want to let him know, being with me doesn’t mean you have to give up his passion for dance. I am totally okay with him dancing but just not those exotic dance but it is okay if he dances only for me. Wait, what am I thinking?
I blindfold him, asking him to trust me as I bring him to somewhere special. He didn’t keep pestering the destination, he waited patiently like I told him to.
I lead him on that place, a special place where once it belongs to me and Taemin. I opened the door, and brought him to the middle of the room. I took off the blindfold.
He gaped in amazement. He turned around to see the place. He was amaze. I bet he never thought that I would bring him here.
I lead him from behind slowly and steady. I could see a bright smile on his face. I stopped him right in the middle of the room.
“You may now take off your blindfold.” He pulled away the blindfold and stared at the mirror in front of him in awe. I hugged him from behind, he was still standing at his position not trying to move away.
“Do you like it?” He nodded excitedly.
“You always have been finding places to practice your dance. Although it’s a place I rent, I promise that in future I would buy you one or make a room in our house to let you practice your dance.” I whispered in his ears. I just love his smile…
“Thanks hyung.” He turned around to hug me.
“Do you like it?” He nodded excitedly.
“I won’t stop you from dancing, dancing has always been your passion. I just want to let you know that, even though you are with me. I won’t stop you from dancing.” He hugged me tightly.
“Thanks hyung.” He buried his head on my chest.
I planned a shopping trip when we are both free during the weekend. Actually we have been spending most of the time together just like how I always spend time with Taeminnie.
He was wearing his hoodie cap over his head, we both were holding hands as we walked in the shopping mall. I heard some girls giggling near us.
“Such a cute couple. That girl is so cute.” I chortled, Taemin mistaken as a girl again. I see him pouting at me as he pull down his hoodie.
“My girlfriend.” I teased. He is just too cute.
“Hey! Minho.” I waved at my friend and he walked towards us. He noticed that I was holding hands with Taemin and smiled. Taemin wasn’t comfortable with someone looking at him. He then cover half of his face with his fringe.
“I didn’t know you have such a cute girlfriend.” Did he just mistaken Taeminnie as a girl? I tried to hold back my laughter.
“Anyway, just drop by to say hi! I’m off. Have fun dating!” He then walked away.
“Why am I the girl in the relationship? I’m a boy hyung…” He pouted. Aigooo, why is he so cute. I pinched his cheeks.
“Aigooo, so cute. It doesn’t matter who’s the girl or guy in the relationship, isn’t it?”
“Hyung, not fair. Why can’t you be mistaken as a girl for once?” I laughed at his comment.
“Cause I’m a man.”
It’s been about three months since I’m with Shin Taemin. I find myself enjoying those time. There isn’t one single bit of unhappiness. I’m always happy.
“Why are you smiling to yourself?”
“Nothing Key hyung. I’m thinking of some things.” Key sat down beside me, we both kept awfully quiet until he suddenly started speaking.
“Minho, are you really happy with Taemin?” The same question he asked when I was with Taeminnie.
“Of course I am.” I never have been happier.
“I got a feeling that you are using Shin Taemin as a substitution for Lee Taemin.” Of course not, I don’t think so.
“What makes you say that? Of course not.”
“I know, I’m not you but as an outsider. The more Taemin look like your Taeminnie, the more you will love him.” Is it really like that? No… It’s time that make me love him more/
“You even started buying clothes that Taeminnie likes for Shin Taemin. Don’t you find it ironic?” No, Taemin loves them. I’m not buying because Taeminnie likes them.
“Let me ask you. Do you know what Taemin’s favorite food is?”
“This is easy… It’s… It’s…” Why? Why can’t I name any?
“Minho. It’s better if you think about it. I don’t wish to see you both hurt.” He pats on my shoulder. Was I really doing it subconsciously? Am I really making Shin Taemin as a substitution?
I stood outside the studio, looking at you dancing in there. Am I… really treating you as Taeminnie? Am I loving you as who you are? Do I keep seeing you as Lee Taemin?
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Wakaka, I finally posted this!
I'm so happy and it almost reached 2k words!
That's why a originally part that should be included is not included.
Well, I hope that I will be able to go for SWC!!
I managed to recover a few almost completed fanfic even though I lost my thumbdrive.
But sadly, I still can't find Unspoken complete so going to re-write it.