Truth and Lies
Title: Truth and Lies
Pairing: Onew/Jonghyun, hint Jonghyun/Key
Genre: Angst/Romance
Rating: PG-15
Summary: A love filled with insecurity and love.
He thought about it over and over again, maybe he’s a little stupid like what others say, but love is such a thing that makes stupidity sound so wonderful.
That’s right, he falls in love with someone that may betray him the next moment. He doesn’t really care or matter. It was love at first sights that made him uncontrollable of his own action and frightened away all his logical thinking. He never had been so out irresponsible of his action before, it was the first time he used his manpower for something that was personal.
The only person that can make him go crazy was none other than Kim Jonghyun.
He’s the only guy in the world that can affect his emotion just a few words, make him hate someone just a second and make him always loyal to him. His every moment and action was all too clear in his eyes. Maybe Jonghyun has already the ability to let someone go crazy for him.
Perhaps Lee Jinki is one of those guys who are mesmerized by him.
Their first impression of Jonghyun managed to successfully capture his heart. Was it out of pity or was it love at first sight… Jinki doesn’t know it. That pair of eyes just hunts him, the moment he shut his own eyes it would just appear.
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Jinki made his way along the hallway, making nearer and nearer to the washroom. He just wanted a break off from those kind of function where he have to smile all the way. He doesn’t like girls sticking close to him at all, especially where almost half of them like him for his money, status and look. Not his heart at all, that’s why he felt disgusted when their hands touch him.
He went in the washroom, just to stand him front of the mirror to get himself wash up. Before he even pressed the tap, he heard moans coming out from one of the cubical. Was his imagination or was it real, he wasn’t quite sure. He was sure only when he heard those moans again.
“Ngghhh…” He was sure that it was a guy groaning in pleasure, but was that slurping sound? He remembered that there was a brothel around, maybe they were having their business here. Among so many places, does it feel more turn on to do it in a men’s restroom?
“I’m close, Jonghyun…” Even thought he knows clearly its two men in there but he felt a little turn on. It doesn’t need to wait for too long, just a few minutes later they were done.
“Ahhh, fuck…” Jinki didn’t move away from his spot, he was rather curious how the two people look. The pulling of zipper was heard and soon the door was unlocked and two men came out from the same cubical.
“Thanks Jonghyun.” The taller male kissed the shorter male, it was rather obvious to Jinki that it was blowjob.
“Hope to see you soon, Minho.” Jonghyun waved goodbye Minho before turning his gaze on Jinki.
“Are you interested, sir?” Even though Jonghyun was trying to seduce Jinki with his eyes but somehow Jinki could see sadness hidden in his eyes. Jonghyun doesn’t really seem happy like how he looked. Even though the man was standing there smiling, but his heart was crying… It really make him curious about the younger boy, won’t it feel painful to smile while hurting so deeply in his own heart? Jonghyun placed a name card in his pocket before walking out of the washroom as if nothing has happened.
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Jinki leaned his elbow on the table and let his head rest on his own hands. Probably because of the recent problem that was happening made him feel more exhausted than usual and has nothing to do with his relationship with Kim Jonghyun at all. This was what he told himself, a lie for him to move on...
Was it for the fact that he was insecure because Jonghyun had never said that he love him once while Jinki was giving his all, making sure Jonghyun knows clearly that he’s crazily in love with him.
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His cold lips touches his heated body, he used his tongues to play with his nipple. Despite always been fuck by numerous of other man, the sensation that Jinki gives was always different than others. He gripped on Jinki’s hair as if griping on to his almost non existing senses.
“Jinki…” He doesn’t even try to hold back his moans, trying his best to him lust for him even more. Jinki couldn’t help to smirked as he looked at the younger boy whimpering under him for more.
“I love you.” He murmured as he bites and nibble on his earlobes, but not a single reply was heard from the younger boy, just lusty moans… Perhaps his mind was too filled up with the current activity they were doing, that’s why he didn’t react much to him.
He let his lover rest on his arms, as he tidy his messy fringe. When he feel satisfied, he then pulled his hand back and stare at Jonghyun.
“Do you love me?” He tried asking again, in his heart he sincerely wished he would say yes or those three words.
“I thought love is showed by action?” Jonghyun smiled cheekily which made Jinki understand that Jonghyun was trying to avoid the question. He doesn’t see a reason why he have to press him for an answer.
“I guess you have to show me again.” Jinki grinned before he pin his lover on the bed for another sleepless night.
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Even though he should be happy for the fact that he was the only one that made Jonghyun leave that horrible place but somehow… He needs an assurance, which Jonghyun can never give… How he wished he could hear Jonghyun saying those three words, just once… He would be content, and regain the strength to move on.
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He managed to get the key using his status, he unlocked the door to his lover’s room, only to see him standing in front of the full length glass which leads to the balcony. Jinki made quiet step before hugging his lover from behind.
“Jonghyun… Are you willing to leave this place with me?” This time round, he didn’t ask it in a demanding way like how he did in the past… It was gentle and understanding kind of way…
“Jinki… I…” Jinki kissed softly on his hair, buried his face at the crook of his neck.
“It’s alright to say no… I don’t want to force you.” Jonghyun felt bad for rejecting him again and again and yet Jinki doesn’t leave him or give up… Perhaps this is love… Love that Jonghyun never knew it exist.
“No, I want to go with you.” Jonghyun turned around to look into older male’s eyes. Those smiling eyes appeared once again on the older male’s face. A simple touch of lips made his effort become worthwhile.
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Knocking sound was heard, he quickly set up straight.
“Come in.” He said before the person came in. It was none other than Kyuhyun, his subordinate.
“Mr Lee, I’m here to report you on Mr Kim’s activity for today.” Jinki nodded and signaled him to continue. Kyuhyun opened up a file and started reading the well summaries report that was on it.
“After you left the house at 10 am, Mr Kim stayed in the house like always and played computer games until 2pm. Because you gave him permission to leave the house, he left the house at 3pm after having his lunch and bathing.” His schedule for the day was somehow within what he originally expected.
“He did some shopping and happened to see Mr Kim Kibum at 4.14pm. They sat down for coffee at the coffee bean, chatted until 4.56pm when Mr Kim Kibum excuse himself and left. Mr Kim then sat there idling until 5.39pm. He then left and reached home about 6.01pm.” He then placed the file down on the table, a few pictures were in the file.
“I’ll take my leave, sir.” Jinki nodded and Kyuhyun left him alone. Jinki picked up a few pictures that they took. Jonghyun was smiling in those pictures. Was he giving Jonghyun too much stress by loving him? Jinki started questioning himself. It was because Jonghyun was really smiling…
Was it a sign to tell him to let go?
He dragged his tired body up the stairs, actually he was hesitant to go up. More for the fact he was afraid. If he goes up and ask him if he met some guy outside and he actually lied saying no. The next moment he would then threw the pictures to him and confronts him why he lied… Won’t it mean an end to their relationship?
He pushed open the door, looking at Jonghyun lying on the bed. His heart softens straight away just because he is Kim Jonghyun. The man he loves. He put his briefcase aside, changing into his home clothes. He plopped himself on the empty space beside his lover.
“Jonghyun.” Jonghyun then turned around to look at Jinki.
“How was your day out today without me?” Jonghyun snuggled close to his warm chest… Actually Jonghyun could hear Jinki’s heart beating a little louder than usual.
“Just went out shopping.” Jinki waited for him to say about meeting Kim Kibum, but Jonghyun only replied that he went out shopping…
“Did you meet anyone while you were shopping?” Actually it was obvious to Jonghyun that Jinki knows he met Kibum but still Jonghyun choose to give the answer that would break Jinki.
“No one…” Jonghyun didn’t want to lie at all, but he knows love would fade off one day. He was hoping it would fade sooner so that the pain that he would have to bear when he was forced to leave, won’t be too painful. He waited for Jinki to push him away, expose his lie but no… Jinki choose to keep quiet. He agreed that he was selfish, selfish to keep Jonghyun with him and not sharing Jonghyun. Despite the fact that he was feeling hurt by his reply, he still kept the same smile on his face.
“That’s good. Did you buy any clothes for me?” Jonghyun really felt bad breaking Jinki like that, but he never trusted that love was an everlasting thing.
“I did. Do you want to try them on now?” Jonghyun looked at Jinki, sorrow filled in the older male’s eyes.
“Later then.” He planted a soft kiss on Jjong’s forehead before letting his head rest on his chest. At this moment, Jinki doesn’t want to think about it anymore. He just wanted their relationship forever stayed like this even if love doesn't exist…
“Do you like Jonghyun?” Kibum wasn’t surprised by his question, more of he was expecting it.
“No, I don’t like him. I love him.” His lips curled up slightly. He had already made up his mind, to let go Jonghyun and let him have the happiness he wants… Since Jonghyun was smiling so truly with him.
“Do you want to take Jonghyun away from me?” Jinki was expecting a yes as an answer but again, Kibum surprised him.
“No.” Jinki doesn’t understand why… Why did Kibum choose not to take him away from him? They are both in love with each other, shouldn’t they be together?
“Jinki, are you really an idiot?” Maybe he was an idiot to force Jonghyun stay with him but he doesn’t think letting go make him an idiot. It’s because he’s giving Jonghyun the happiness he should have.
“Do you think Jonghyun really love me? If he did, he would have left with me when I ask him but he chose you Jinki. He chose to leave that place with you. If it’s because that time we both was chatting happily at the café, he was talking about you.” He couldn’t believe his ears, Jonghyun was smiling happily because he was talking about him.
“Jinki, Jonghyun grew up watching too many broken love stories, that’s why he’s insecure to love. Only you can make him trust that there is such thing as everlasting love.”He never knew he would have such ability but because of his word, Jinki would continue to love Jonghyun, waiting patiently for the day where he finally loves him back fully.
Two bodies snuggled closely on the soft warm bed. Tonight no lust was involved at all, just pure need of each other presence. Jinki wrapped his arms around Jonghyun from behind, his face lean close from behind.
“I love you.” Again, he repeated the three words, but this time without hoping that the younger boy would reply the three words back. Jonghyun pretends his asleep and made his own breathing sounded as if he was sleeping. Jinki know about it, he knew that Jonghyun was wide awake because what Jonghyun good at was running away.
“Jonghyun, I will wait… Wait until the day where you can fully love me.” He tightens the grip around his slim waist, letting their bodies pressed even closer.
Single drops of tear trickle down his eyes, how he wished he could love him back like how did…
But he can’t… Maybe not now…
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Originally, I wanted to join in the challenge, but to find out my story have nothing to do with the prompt even though I use the picture prompt to develop the story...
Enjoy!
Pairing: Onew/Jonghyun, hint Jonghyun/Key
Genre: Angst/Romance
Rating: PG-15
Summary: A love filled with insecurity and love.
He thought about it over and over again, maybe he’s a little stupid like what others say, but love is such a thing that makes stupidity sound so wonderful.
That’s right, he falls in love with someone that may betray him the next moment. He doesn’t really care or matter. It was love at first sights that made him uncontrollable of his own action and frightened away all his logical thinking. He never had been so out irresponsible of his action before, it was the first time he used his manpower for something that was personal.
The only person that can make him go crazy was none other than Kim Jonghyun.
He’s the only guy in the world that can affect his emotion just a few words, make him hate someone just a second and make him always loyal to him. His every moment and action was all too clear in his eyes. Maybe Jonghyun has already the ability to let someone go crazy for him.
Perhaps Lee Jinki is one of those guys who are mesmerized by him.
Their first impression of Jonghyun managed to successfully capture his heart. Was it out of pity or was it love at first sight… Jinki doesn’t know it. That pair of eyes just hunts him, the moment he shut his own eyes it would just appear.
- - - - - -
Jinki made his way along the hallway, making nearer and nearer to the washroom. He just wanted a break off from those kind of function where he have to smile all the way. He doesn’t like girls sticking close to him at all, especially where almost half of them like him for his money, status and look. Not his heart at all, that’s why he felt disgusted when their hands touch him.
He went in the washroom, just to stand him front of the mirror to get himself wash up. Before he even pressed the tap, he heard moans coming out from one of the cubical. Was his imagination or was it real, he wasn’t quite sure. He was sure only when he heard those moans again.
“Ngghhh…” He was sure that it was a guy groaning in pleasure, but was that slurping sound? He remembered that there was a brothel around, maybe they were having their business here. Among so many places, does it feel more turn on to do it in a men’s restroom?
“I’m close, Jonghyun…” Even thought he knows clearly its two men in there but he felt a little turn on. It doesn’t need to wait for too long, just a few minutes later they were done.
“Ahhh, fuck…” Jinki didn’t move away from his spot, he was rather curious how the two people look. The pulling of zipper was heard and soon the door was unlocked and two men came out from the same cubical.
“Thanks Jonghyun.” The taller male kissed the shorter male, it was rather obvious to Jinki that it was blowjob.
“Hope to see you soon, Minho.” Jonghyun waved goodbye Minho before turning his gaze on Jinki.
“Are you interested, sir?” Even though Jonghyun was trying to seduce Jinki with his eyes but somehow Jinki could see sadness hidden in his eyes. Jonghyun doesn’t really seem happy like how he looked. Even though the man was standing there smiling, but his heart was crying… It really make him curious about the younger boy, won’t it feel painful to smile while hurting so deeply in his own heart? Jonghyun placed a name card in his pocket before walking out of the washroom as if nothing has happened.
- - - - - -
Jinki leaned his elbow on the table and let his head rest on his own hands. Probably because of the recent problem that was happening made him feel more exhausted than usual and has nothing to do with his relationship with Kim Jonghyun at all. This was what he told himself, a lie for him to move on...
Was it for the fact that he was insecure because Jonghyun had never said that he love him once while Jinki was giving his all, making sure Jonghyun knows clearly that he’s crazily in love with him.
- - - - - -
His cold lips touches his heated body, he used his tongues to play with his nipple. Despite always been fuck by numerous of other man, the sensation that Jinki gives was always different than others. He gripped on Jinki’s hair as if griping on to his almost non existing senses.
“Jinki…” He doesn’t even try to hold back his moans, trying his best to him lust for him even more. Jinki couldn’t help to smirked as he looked at the younger boy whimpering under him for more.
“I love you.” He murmured as he bites and nibble on his earlobes, but not a single reply was heard from the younger boy, just lusty moans… Perhaps his mind was too filled up with the current activity they were doing, that’s why he didn’t react much to him.
He let his lover rest on his arms, as he tidy his messy fringe. When he feel satisfied, he then pulled his hand back and stare at Jonghyun.
“Do you love me?” He tried asking again, in his heart he sincerely wished he would say yes or those three words.
“I thought love is showed by action?” Jonghyun smiled cheekily which made Jinki understand that Jonghyun was trying to avoid the question. He doesn’t see a reason why he have to press him for an answer.
“I guess you have to show me again.” Jinki grinned before he pin his lover on the bed for another sleepless night.
- - - - - -
Even though he should be happy for the fact that he was the only one that made Jonghyun leave that horrible place but somehow… He needs an assurance, which Jonghyun can never give… How he wished he could hear Jonghyun saying those three words, just once… He would be content, and regain the strength to move on.
- - - - - -
He managed to get the key using his status, he unlocked the door to his lover’s room, only to see him standing in front of the full length glass which leads to the balcony. Jinki made quiet step before hugging his lover from behind.
“Jonghyun… Are you willing to leave this place with me?” This time round, he didn’t ask it in a demanding way like how he did in the past… It was gentle and understanding kind of way…
“Jinki… I…” Jinki kissed softly on his hair, buried his face at the crook of his neck.
“It’s alright to say no… I don’t want to force you.” Jonghyun felt bad for rejecting him again and again and yet Jinki doesn’t leave him or give up… Perhaps this is love… Love that Jonghyun never knew it exist.
“No, I want to go with you.” Jonghyun turned around to look into older male’s eyes. Those smiling eyes appeared once again on the older male’s face. A simple touch of lips made his effort become worthwhile.
- - - - - -
Knocking sound was heard, he quickly set up straight.
“Come in.” He said before the person came in. It was none other than Kyuhyun, his subordinate.
“Mr Lee, I’m here to report you on Mr Kim’s activity for today.” Jinki nodded and signaled him to continue. Kyuhyun opened up a file and started reading the well summaries report that was on it.
“After you left the house at 10 am, Mr Kim stayed in the house like always and played computer games until 2pm. Because you gave him permission to leave the house, he left the house at 3pm after having his lunch and bathing.” His schedule for the day was somehow within what he originally expected.
“He did some shopping and happened to see Mr Kim Kibum at 4.14pm. They sat down for coffee at the coffee bean, chatted until 4.56pm when Mr Kim Kibum excuse himself and left. Mr Kim then sat there idling until 5.39pm. He then left and reached home about 6.01pm.” He then placed the file down on the table, a few pictures were in the file.
“I’ll take my leave, sir.” Jinki nodded and Kyuhyun left him alone. Jinki picked up a few pictures that they took. Jonghyun was smiling in those pictures. Was he giving Jonghyun too much stress by loving him? Jinki started questioning himself. It was because Jonghyun was really smiling…
Was it a sign to tell him to let go?
He dragged his tired body up the stairs, actually he was hesitant to go up. More for the fact he was afraid. If he goes up and ask him if he met some guy outside and he actually lied saying no. The next moment he would then threw the pictures to him and confronts him why he lied… Won’t it mean an end to their relationship?
He pushed open the door, looking at Jonghyun lying on the bed. His heart softens straight away just because he is Kim Jonghyun. The man he loves. He put his briefcase aside, changing into his home clothes. He plopped himself on the empty space beside his lover.
“Jonghyun.” Jonghyun then turned around to look at Jinki.
“How was your day out today without me?” Jonghyun snuggled close to his warm chest… Actually Jonghyun could hear Jinki’s heart beating a little louder than usual.
“Just went out shopping.” Jinki waited for him to say about meeting Kim Kibum, but Jonghyun only replied that he went out shopping…
“Did you meet anyone while you were shopping?” Actually it was obvious to Jonghyun that Jinki knows he met Kibum but still Jonghyun choose to give the answer that would break Jinki.
“No one…” Jonghyun didn’t want to lie at all, but he knows love would fade off one day. He was hoping it would fade sooner so that the pain that he would have to bear when he was forced to leave, won’t be too painful. He waited for Jinki to push him away, expose his lie but no… Jinki choose to keep quiet. He agreed that he was selfish, selfish to keep Jonghyun with him and not sharing Jonghyun. Despite the fact that he was feeling hurt by his reply, he still kept the same smile on his face.
“That’s good. Did you buy any clothes for me?” Jonghyun really felt bad breaking Jinki like that, but he never trusted that love was an everlasting thing.
“I did. Do you want to try them on now?” Jonghyun looked at Jinki, sorrow filled in the older male’s eyes.
“Later then.” He planted a soft kiss on Jjong’s forehead before letting his head rest on his chest. At this moment, Jinki doesn’t want to think about it anymore. He just wanted their relationship forever stayed like this even if love doesn't exist…
“Do you like Jonghyun?” Kibum wasn’t surprised by his question, more of he was expecting it.
“No, I don’t like him. I love him.” His lips curled up slightly. He had already made up his mind, to let go Jonghyun and let him have the happiness he wants… Since Jonghyun was smiling so truly with him.
“Do you want to take Jonghyun away from me?” Jinki was expecting a yes as an answer but again, Kibum surprised him.
“No.” Jinki doesn’t understand why… Why did Kibum choose not to take him away from him? They are both in love with each other, shouldn’t they be together?
“Jinki, are you really an idiot?” Maybe he was an idiot to force Jonghyun stay with him but he doesn’t think letting go make him an idiot. It’s because he’s giving Jonghyun the happiness he should have.
“Do you think Jonghyun really love me? If he did, he would have left with me when I ask him but he chose you Jinki. He chose to leave that place with you. If it’s because that time we both was chatting happily at the café, he was talking about you.” He couldn’t believe his ears, Jonghyun was smiling happily because he was talking about him.
“Jinki, Jonghyun grew up watching too many broken love stories, that’s why he’s insecure to love. Only you can make him trust that there is such thing as everlasting love.”He never knew he would have such ability but because of his word, Jinki would continue to love Jonghyun, waiting patiently for the day where he finally loves him back fully.
Two bodies snuggled closely on the soft warm bed. Tonight no lust was involved at all, just pure need of each other presence. Jinki wrapped his arms around Jonghyun from behind, his face lean close from behind.
“I love you.” Again, he repeated the three words, but this time without hoping that the younger boy would reply the three words back. Jonghyun pretends his asleep and made his own breathing sounded as if he was sleeping. Jinki know about it, he knew that Jonghyun was wide awake because what Jonghyun good at was running away.
“Jonghyun, I will wait… Wait until the day where you can fully love me.” He tightens the grip around his slim waist, letting their bodies pressed even closer.
Single drops of tear trickle down his eyes, how he wished he could love him back like how did…
But he can’t… Maybe not now…
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Originally, I wanted to join in the challenge, but to find out my story have nothing to do with the prompt even though I use the picture prompt to develop the story...
Enjoy!