Some recent ramblings....

[calichillout]

Well, I haven't made a real post on here for some time so I figured now's as good a time as any...especially since I have some things to get off my chest. This post covers being gay, being biracial, yearning to be "normal."

Comments

[dreamguy55]

awww, i know where ur coming from. *hugs* i dont understand how i can be gay either. its weird how it works. i hope u think positive and realize what a great person u really are and that what other people think shouldn't matter to you =) feel better...

♥ Brynn

P.S. Call me sometime if you wanna talk

[calichillout]

thanks for the positive comments man. Yeah, it is weird how it all works, huh?

[dreamguy55]

of course. i'm always here to help a friend :)

♥ Brynn

First of all I LOVE YOU. so this is all love

[javila]

*smacks you behind your head* I never want to hear you say that you hate being biracial.. be happy, yeah you're black and white, and you look more black than white but it's not like you're not human. You're a great guy and I personally think you just need to feel good about yourself and not give a shit about anyone else. If someone isn't going to talk to you because of your skin colour, FUCK THEM. I've gotten to that point in life and it feels great, if feels awsome being comfortable with myself

Re: First of all I LOVE YOU. so this is all love

[calichillout]

Ouch, that hurt dude! LOL. It's hard to rejoice in not belonging to any one group. The need to belong is a natural human desire and it's extremely difficult to belong if you have characteristics that don't fit anywhere. I feel like I'm not white enough to be white, black enough to be black, gay enough to be gay, straight enough to be straight....the list goes on. Yes, I can say "Fuck em" but at the same time, it hurts after saying fuck em to everyone....and having no one to say Let's Fuck (proverbially). Yeah, the anorexic white boys really have it good in gay culture. Everyone wants them:-( Yes, I want someone who can hold their own too. Thanks for the love dude.

[spawrhawk]

Hmm... where to start.

Half n' Half

It's funny because I'm half Vietnamese and half Spanish. I don't identify very closely with my Vietnamese side at all because I wasn't really exposed to it and frankly you can't tell unless you were looking for that in me. Delving into my roots though, I have learnt where I come from and can appreciate a part of me that I never thought to explore. Don't know if it's the same with you. Rather than shunning it, embrace it. It's what makes you unique and have that much more to offer. Just a different way to look at it, I suppose.

Being Gay
Our society is so label crazy that we have come up with "metrosexuals". *rolls eyes* What a joke. Just as in the 'straight' world, you have diversity. There is a whole spectrum. So much so, that there is a website devoted to "straight acting gays". *shakes head* To each his own, I guess. That term bugs me simply because it suggest that the person is still trying to conform into a mold society has impressed upon them on what is "right". And who does that? Usually

[calichillout]

Hey buddy

[ex_awwyea165]

Listen my friend,
You most certainly are not alone. Take my brother and myself. Neither of us go to gay bars, have "gay" traits and or feel comfortable in the gay scene. Almost all our friends are straight and thats the way it has been. What we do know, is ourselves and we like us and thats not an easy thing to do when you come from a background of christian straights. The trick is liking yourself and things about you and the rest falls into place. Have heart anf faith bro, it does get better. There are guys out there for you and like you.

[calichillout]

Wow, it feels good to know that I'm not alone in this! It really isn't easy when you come from a background of christian straights. Honestly, I think that makes self-acceptance doubly difficult. I definitely need to continue working on liking myself....it's a hard process though. Thanks for the reassurance:-)

[ex_awwyea165]

Anytime bro. You ever need to talk you let me know.

[calichillout]

Thanks a lot buddy:-D

[kickster]

So many times I've felt out of place. All it took was time. You can ask any of my friends and they will tell you I have no since of style. I do not have the decorating gene. I cannot organized a good party if my life depended on it. I don't know all the current dance music. To be honest I depend on my friends to help me out with these area's. Hell, they insist on going with me to buy clothes so I don't end up with just ball caps and t-shirts. One thing I do have is pride. I may not offer all of these "typical gay traits", but I do offer a great many other things that my friends, gay and str8, love me for. The same goes for them. I have a few gay friends that can be overly obsessed with $100 jeans, but I appreciate them for it. I get a kick out of it. Then again I have str8 friends that would pay $1000 for a base ball card and a Dad that would buy a $2500 bottle of scotch. That cracks me up as well but it's what makes them happy. I have to say that I do love going out to bars with friends. I just go with the mindset of it's not up to

[ex_awwyea165]

Hey thanks Kickster. I added you to my LJ.
For de record brah'der, oi'm 1/2 Oirish. Me da is from Dublin, Oirlan'.

[kickster]

HAAAAA!!! That was great me' brah'der. Whats the other half?

[ex_awwyea165]

Our da says we are 3/4th Irish because my mother is 1/2 Irish 1/2 Canadian. Im an Irish-Canadian mutt...lol