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[cake_is_yummy21]

so I played today...yeah. I got through my song almost perfectely....my tone was good....but my hand would not stop shaking....it wasn't a good thing. I wasn't even nervous, I was just hot....and when I put my stuff away, it was still shaking. Everyone said I played well...but I don't think that its true. It also stinks that people know who I am,

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[irishpecas14]

if you really REALLY want something s, don't let people tell you what you can do.... if they're stopping you find another way... okay?

ummm that stinks. i know what you're saying about how you feel like you played bad and everyone's like "no it was good"... and you're like ... NO REALLY, i CAN play better than that... hahaha

it stinks.... but i think you've gotten better this year... at least a little more resiliant towards criticism....

i love you s. sorry today sucked. ONE MORE DAY TILL THE WEEKEND.

love, e

[cake_is_yummy21]

it wouldn't be anyones descion, but my own. I haven't been kicked out, and I doubt I will be. But in case, I just cant handle the stress. I used to love it, and when I do poorly in it, it feels like I've failed. Does that make sense?

Does your hand ever shake like that? I think I need to take like valium or something before my jury...

I like criticism...buts its always negative...sometimes I just want something positive...its sad becasue they teach us that for every negative comment you need like 10 positive ones to fix it...I'm at about 2000...ha ha.

Weekend= more work for me becasue I have to work and play at a concert...whcih = no practice time...work is dumb. That also means I cant go to that party....but I can see you at like 10ish.

I <3 you!
S

[irishpecas14]

haha ....oh man.

my hands always shake. my last jury i was on a LOT of meds and it helped... i took like three ibprofin... but i had been in a car accident too.

i understand things... so what do you think you'll switch to then?

i'm sorry things are going so wrong.

i can't wait for freaking break and playing.

i love you.
e

[cake_is_yummy21]

I'm not switching until, its absolutely unbarable...I also can't because I am an officer...

I need to not be nervous for dumb things.

Love, S

[violinistic819]

I LOVE SHERRI! i miss playing in orchestra with you. :(

hugs!

[violinistic819]

oh yeah, and i've definitely had the hand-shaking thing happen to me. it really sucks when it's my bow arm and i'm trying to play something soft and slow. but guess what? it's really not that bad...everyone has it sometime, i think

[cake_is_yummy21]

oh heather, thanks a lot.

Being nervous about playing though just doesn't make sense to me...its never happened before.

Do you think people who did play a stringed instrument noticed...ha ha becasue my parnets definately did and they don't know that much about it.

This made me feel a little better!

Love, S

[cake_is_yummy21]

I miss that as well.

Lets play when you get back and things!

Love, S