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so I played today...yeah. I got through my song almost perfectely....my tone was good....but my hand would not stop shaking....it wasn't a good thing. I wasn't even nervous, I was just hot....and when I put my stuff away, it was still shaking. Everyone said I played well...but I don't think that its true. It also stinks that people know who I am, then they can talk about how I played to other people.
Dr. Bates says that I have improved...but seriously, last year I played way better, and I didn't get nearly as nervous.yeah, so I pretty much know why people never ask me to play in things...I'm not fishing for compliments...I know when I play well and when I play bad. Today was a bad day, as well as last thursday.
yeah...whatever. If I get kicked out, I'm not going to school for music...I'm too hard on myself. I set my expectations way too high.
Dr. Bates says that I have improved...but seriously, last year I played way better, and I didn't get nearly as nervous.yeah, so I pretty much know why people never ask me to play in things...I'm not fishing for compliments...I know when I play well and when I play bad. Today was a bad day, as well as last thursday.
yeah...whatever. If I get kicked out, I'm not going to school for music...I'm too hard on myself. I set my expectations way too high.