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[cake_is_yummy21]

so I played today...yeah. I got through my song almost perfectely....my tone was good....but my hand would not stop shaking....it wasn't a good thing. I wasn't even nervous, I was just hot....and when I put my stuff away, it was still shaking. Everyone said I played well...but I don't think that its true. It also stinks that people know who I am,

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[irishpecas14]

if you really REALLY want something s, don't let people tell you what you can do.... if they're stopping you find another way... okay?

ummm that stinks. i know what you're saying about how you feel like you played bad and everyone's like "no it was good"... and you're like ... NO REALLY, i CAN play better than that... hahaha

it stinks.... but i think you've gotten better this year... at least a little more resiliant towards criticism....

i love you s. sorry today sucked. ONE MORE DAY TILL THE WEEKEND.

love, e

[cake_is_yummy21]

it wouldn't be anyones descion, but my own. I haven't been kicked out, and I doubt I will be. But in case, I just cant handle the stress. I used to love it, and when I do poorly in it, it feels like I've failed. Does that make sense?

Does your hand ever shake like that? I think I need to take like valium or something before my jury...

I like criticism...buts its always negative...sometimes I just want something positive...its sad becasue they teach us that for every negative comment you need like 10 positive ones to fix it...I'm at about 2000...ha ha.

Weekend= more work for me becasue I have to work and play at a concert...whcih = no practice time...work is dumb. That also means I cant go to that party....but I can see you at like 10ish.

I <3 you!
S

[irishpecas14]

haha ....oh man.

my hands always shake. my last jury i was on a LOT of meds and it helped... i took like three ibprofin... but i had been in a car accident too.

i understand things... so what do you think you'll switch to then?

i'm sorry things are going so wrong.

i can't wait for freaking break and playing.

i love you.
e

[cake_is_yummy21]

I'm not switching until, its absolutely unbarable...I also can't because I am an officer...

I need to not be nervous for dumb things.

Love, S

[irishpecas14]

i wish i was an officer... man.

i love you! e