Im home alone. Its been forever since I posted, I forgot this site even existed ( Read more... )

The same as Ive always been. I completely ran out of journal space and have no more long distance calling. Im minorly depressed, totally lonely and with out anything to do ( Read more... )

Joey went to get something for his car so Im taking this oppertunity to update to tell you all.. Im miserable. FUCKING MISERABLE! Im so depressed I could sit and cry for days..its taking amazing strength to sit here and type ( Read more... )

I only have 5 minutes left on my library card..fuck. Not nearly enough time to say all that I want and need to ( Read more... )

I don't know why I am constantly left here arguing with myself, debating my existence. My Christmas was spent alone on the blacony of my brothers apartment smoking all of my cigarettes, drinking cold coffe, talking to Chris..and despite what he says, Im sure ends up regretting picking up my call..Like everyone else I ramble and yell to trying to ( Read more... )

I think...That the obessity in the world has to do with Americans being undersatisfied with life and with the newfound technology being incapable to compete with their over worked zealous minds. I suppose, that the boredom it intales is therefore somewhat understandable. The numbing boredom causes people to over eat to fill themselves up with food ( Read more... )

 I always talk about the same shit. Everyday. Day after day. The same. How I think I need to be medicated. How upset or pist off I am. How humanity is in contiuously destroying and corrupting. I am really boring. My views are purley pessimistic. I am bleak and ambiguous. I hate it. I need a new light. I need an understanding. I need to find a ( Read more... )

people are sooo gay.

I just want to feel like myself again. Thats all I want. I don't want to be this crying drunken mess anymore. I'm trying to stay somewhat sober. I drink everyday still...but don't get shitfaced. I feel like alcohol has made me lose sight of things and I do not know who I am. Maybe I never have? My self pitty is swallowing me slowly...Like a snake ( Read more... )

The beach was tight today :o) Me, Justin, Megan, Hadox, Katie and Jeanne. Jeanne by-the-way, lol, just tried to put a piece of pizza in the microwave for 4 minutes. WTF? That drunk ass. I cant beleive I used to out drink her..crazy shit cuz she drinks ALOT.

Rehab on wednesday

Marine World tomorrow (Monday)

I cry everyday...several times a day...Im ( Read more... )