punching bag
Joey went to get something for his car so Im taking this oppertunity to update to tell you all.. Im miserable. FUCKING MISERABLE! Im so depressed I could sit and cry for days..its taking amazing strength to sit here and type.
Imagining Joey with that Maddy girl makes me sick to my stomach. LITERALLY sick. Him touching her and kissing her. I can just invision all the things he said to her to seduce her into his arms. SICK. I wont kiss him. I dont want his face anywhere near mine. But I know in the future I can only see him next to me and dont want to end it so soon. Even if the future holds more pain..The expierence..the companionship is worth it in my eyes.
My heart hurts. I feel heavy and so lonley and desperate I cant even speak.
Joeys home. Hes going riding..ill be home alone if anyone wants to call me.
Imagining Joey with that Maddy girl makes me sick to my stomach. LITERALLY sick. Him touching her and kissing her. I can just invision all the things he said to her to seduce her into his arms. SICK. I wont kiss him. I dont want his face anywhere near mine. But I know in the future I can only see him next to me and dont want to end it so soon. Even if the future holds more pain..The expierence..the companionship is worth it in my eyes.
My heart hurts. I feel heavy and so lonley and desperate I cant even speak.
Joeys home. Hes going riding..ill be home alone if anyone wants to call me.