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i miss home
as much as love it here..too much shit has happened for me to not want to come home..even if just for a bit
i just hate that the person i considered my closest friend on this program i barely know now..hes a completly different person since he started hanging out with her
things to check off my life list
-getting stabbed in the back, metaphorically
-having my heart broken
-setting my kitchen on fire
i just wish it wasnt someone i considered such a close and trustworthy person who not only back stabbed me but then started hooking up with the ex which she knew i still had feeings for
great friend huh
and then last night she came in my room!!!there are certain rules you just dont break and thts one of them..but i guess sh was never good with rules considering the other shit she pulled..
aaarrrrg ive never wanted revenge this badly before..not only on he but on him for being a douche as well
i mean he is great when its jus thw two of us talking but as soon as pther people come around he does a 180..and he keeps me on ths constant guilt trip for what i said when hes pulled so much over the last 2 months..
i just dont knwo when enough is enogh and when i try to tlk to him and tell him he's different he just storms off, which really doesnt help
and tomm night alll of the program is getting together for a big purim blow out and itll be the first time i see them together...and how do i handle that when just the thought of the two of them together makes me sick?
as much as love it here..too much shit has happened for me to not want to come home..even if just for a bit
i just hate that the person i considered my closest friend on this program i barely know now..hes a completly different person since he started hanging out with her
things to check off my life list
-getting stabbed in the back, metaphorically
-having my heart broken
-setting my kitchen on fire
i just wish it wasnt someone i considered such a close and trustworthy person who not only back stabbed me but then started hooking up with the ex which she knew i still had feeings for
great friend huh
and then last night she came in my room!!!there are certain rules you just dont break and thts one of them..but i guess sh was never good with rules considering the other shit she pulled..
aaarrrrg ive never wanted revenge this badly before..not only on he but on him for being a douche as well
i mean he is great when its jus thw two of us talking but as soon as pther people come around he does a 180..and he keeps me on ths constant guilt trip for what i said when hes pulled so much over the last 2 months..
i just dont knwo when enough is enogh and when i try to tlk to him and tell him he's different he just storms off, which really doesnt help
and tomm night alll of the program is getting together for a big purim blow out and itll be the first time i see them together...and how do i handle that when just the thought of the two of them together makes me sick?