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so ive been here about 2 1/2 months
its wierd to accept it..cause it feels so normal here
its hard for me to accept that i wont be here next yr..that there wont be anymore trips to the shuk and the old city frfiday and sunday mornings
there wont be anymore k1 lovefests and have to accept that room 301 will be disbanded
being a 15 minute walk from Ben Yehuda and Emek Refaim
and knowing that going home will be like going back to high school..drama, everyone treating me like im 5 yrs younger than i am and the akwardness of coming home from something like this
as much as i mis home..and i do miss it soo much
i cant picture myself anywhere else but here..and with these people
its so hard for me to accept that ths is all happening, thst its real
and even worse that too soon it will be over
we leave Jerusalem in about 2 months for Be'er Sheva..and i know even then everything will change
he wont be there with me..and that makes me worryits pathetic that i cant fall asleep easily in my bed alone anymore...what am i going to do in 2 weeks when ill only see him on the weekends
and then after that?
and even with all this i miss home
well..parts of home..mostly people from home
this weekend will be hard..knowing that everyone will be meeting up at home again an hanging out
and ill be here..
eff this i need a choko b'sakit
its wierd to accept it..cause it feels so normal here
its hard for me to accept that i wont be here next yr..that there wont be anymore trips to the shuk and the old city frfiday and sunday mornings
there wont be anymore k1 lovefests and have to accept that room 301 will be disbanded
being a 15 minute walk from Ben Yehuda and Emek Refaim
and knowing that going home will be like going back to high school..drama, everyone treating me like im 5 yrs younger than i am and the akwardness of coming home from something like this
as much as i mis home..and i do miss it soo much
i cant picture myself anywhere else but here..and with these people
its so hard for me to accept that ths is all happening, thst its real
and even worse that too soon it will be over
we leave Jerusalem in about 2 months for Be'er Sheva..and i know even then everything will change
he wont be there with me..and that makes me worryits pathetic that i cant fall asleep easily in my bed alone anymore...what am i going to do in 2 weeks when ill only see him on the weekends
and then after that?
and even with all this i miss home
well..parts of home..mostly people from home
this weekend will be hard..knowing that everyone will be meeting up at home again an hanging out
and ill be here..
eff this i need a choko b'sakit