The leaves fall down, and autumn's here;
Guess you won't come back this year.
Guess it's one more winter on my own.
So I hang the shutters, close the doors,
The vetran of a thousand wars
We fought against each other, all alone.
And it's one more year of empty nights,
Of hanging broken Christmas lights,
Wishing I could somehow change the past.
And it's one more year of empty days,
Frozen tears and small delays.
We should have known the ceasefire couldn't last...
I am missing you at midnight,
I am lonely in the moonlight,
Don't try to say it's all right,
It doesn't matter now.
I am shadowed by the sunset,
I am drowning in my regret,
Don't tell me that I'll forget;
It doesn't matter, doesn't matter now.
In my belladonna bower's bed,
I close my eyes and lay my head
Upon the pillow, wishing I could sleep.
It's a sort of fractured fairy tale,
The true love always meant to fail,
The happy ending we could never keep.
And it's one more harvest left to rot,
One more hymn to all we're not,
One more autumn more than I can bear.
And my coffin isn't made of glass --
It's the bits and pieces of the past,
And I ask you, do you really think it's fair?
It doesn't matter that our once upon a time
Turned into 'once upon an almost',
Turned into fiction in our hands.
It doesn't matter, because love is not a crime,
And I am colder now, I'm older now,
But I still don't understand why
I am missing you at midnight,
I am lonely in the moonlight,
Don't try to say it's all right,
It doesn't matter now.
I am shadowed by the sunset,
I am drowning in my regret,
Don't tell me that I'll forget;
It doesn't matter, doesn't matter now.
I am sleepless, wishing for the spring,
For the thaw to come, for anything
That offers half a prayer that you'll return.
I am broken by the weight of you,
By the barriers I can't get through...
You're a lesson that I don't think I can learn.
I am missing you at midnight,
I am lonely in the moonlight,
Don't try to say it's all right,
It doesn't matter now.
I am shadowed by the sunset,
I am drowning in my regret,
Don't tell me that I'll forget;
It doesn't matter, doesn't matter now.
It doesn't matter, doesn't matter now.