Single again... Ugh
Its weird how I can be fine with being single for so long, then after a 2 month relationship which honestly wasn't that great, I'm pretty lonely and dread being single...
It sucks to be lonely and it sucks even more since I wasn't the one who broke it off, although its not my past relationships that are interfering with things. My Ex has 2 failed marriages (I don't say divorce) and numerous bad relationships, yet somehow I thought maybe she'd be healthy enough to have a relationship with..
Shame on me for falling for her so quickly.. Shame on me for letting things move so fast that it ended up in destruction... Shame on me for "chasing her" after the breakup.
She wanted to continue being friends and see how things went, but I told her today that it wasn't fair to her since I felt so strongly for her, and it wasn't fair to me to care about somebody so much, but not receive any amount of care back.
I let go, I move forward, I release my frustrations, I release my anger. I still care for her and really could see myself wanting to be with her down the road, but I know that first she needs to recognize her own issues and deal with them... Although I'm sure if I was rich, we'd still be together then I could get her anything she wanted
Ah well.. If it was meant to be, it'll come around again.. otherwise, its a lesson learned!
Viva la... whatever
It sucks to be lonely and it sucks even more since I wasn't the one who broke it off, although its not my past relationships that are interfering with things. My Ex has 2 failed marriages (I don't say divorce) and numerous bad relationships, yet somehow I thought maybe she'd be healthy enough to have a relationship with..
Shame on me for falling for her so quickly.. Shame on me for letting things move so fast that it ended up in destruction... Shame on me for "chasing her" after the breakup.
She wanted to continue being friends and see how things went, but I told her today that it wasn't fair to her since I felt so strongly for her, and it wasn't fair to me to care about somebody so much, but not receive any amount of care back.
I let go, I move forward, I release my frustrations, I release my anger. I still care for her and really could see myself wanting to be with her down the road, but I know that first she needs to recognize her own issues and deal with them... Although I'm sure if I was rich, we'd still be together then I could get her anything she wanted
Ah well.. If it was meant to be, it'll come around again.. otherwise, its a lesson learned!
Viva la... whatever