I've never wanted something rational..I am aware now
spon.ta.ne.ous -adjective
coming or resulting from a natural impulse or tendency; without effort or premeditation; natural and unconstrained; unplanned
arising from internal forces or causes; independent of external agencies; self-acting
growing naturally or without cultivation
These were the three best definitions I think for spontaneous. I am revelling in spontaneity. I just want to hold on to it and roll around in it and love it and love myself for it. This is my goal. :) To me sponaneity equals me just getting up and going when I have to or want to. When I feel like wearing something dumb, I where it. When I feel like singing, I do it. When I don't feel like doing my hair or when I have things I should be doing but give them up to do something I want to do. All of these things are so crucial in my existence. I want to go camping just cause I said so. I want to no plan a vacation but just go. Or drive and drive somewhere just because. I've been trying these things. I've been trying them out to see how they feel. I bet I was so much more fun when I used to be more like this. Then I thought I was too grown up or something. I mean, I appreciate responsibility and work (for real, I do). I appreciate plans and I genuinely like getting dressed up and feeling all gussied up. :) That's just who I am. But I forgot that I can feel pretty when I just be. I forget sometimes how much fun it can be to just go. not think of all the what ifs and just do. I love that feeling so much.
Like hey let's drive to ocean city to stand in the sand. :) and then let's drive through atlantic city, just because. Then we will go home and say, that was fucking freezing..and FUN!! Spontaneous Melissa was so fucking cool man. heh.
This is part of my journey and i am holding on to it. SO, if anyone is ever up for a random "let's go", hit me up! :)
Just thought I'd share. I get seriously proud of myself when I figure things out. nerd.
coming or resulting from a natural impulse or tendency; without effort or premeditation; natural and unconstrained; unplanned
arising from internal forces or causes; independent of external agencies; self-acting
growing naturally or without cultivation
These were the three best definitions I think for spontaneous. I am revelling in spontaneity. I just want to hold on to it and roll around in it and love it and love myself for it. This is my goal. :) To me sponaneity equals me just getting up and going when I have to or want to. When I feel like wearing something dumb, I where it. When I feel like singing, I do it. When I don't feel like doing my hair or when I have things I should be doing but give them up to do something I want to do. All of these things are so crucial in my existence. I want to go camping just cause I said so. I want to no plan a vacation but just go. Or drive and drive somewhere just because. I've been trying these things. I've been trying them out to see how they feel. I bet I was so much more fun when I used to be more like this. Then I thought I was too grown up or something. I mean, I appreciate responsibility and work (for real, I do). I appreciate plans and I genuinely like getting dressed up and feeling all gussied up. :) That's just who I am. But I forgot that I can feel pretty when I just be. I forget sometimes how much fun it can be to just go. not think of all the what ifs and just do. I love that feeling so much.
Like hey let's drive to ocean city to stand in the sand. :) and then let's drive through atlantic city, just because. Then we will go home and say, that was fucking freezing..and FUN!! Spontaneous Melissa was so fucking cool man. heh.
This is part of my journey and i am holding on to it. SO, if anyone is ever up for a random "let's go", hit me up! :)
Just thought I'd share. I get seriously proud of myself when I figure things out. nerd.