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of course i write in this again, when i feel like a piece of shit and hurt. i hate this feeling and i do not understand why i have to resort to this journal on the web. why cant i have someone there who honestly wants to listen to me and actually listen and respond with meaning. why do i tell you over and over again how horrible it makes me feel for you to do that. didn't i say before that it hurts me for you to get off to someone else? fuck porn. i dont give a fuck if anyone who reads this disagrees. I HATE PORN, ITS DEMORALIZING, DISGUSTING, SHAMEFUL, DISTASTEFUL. sure lets all go jerk off and get our jollies off when my fucking girlfriend will GLADLY give you some fucking sex. you fucking horny, heartless prick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont want to feel like this my whole life, i could see myself loving him forever but not when i feel so inferior.. gah. i hope your satisfied, are balls feeling good and are you all relaxed and shit? WELLLLLLLLLLLLL im glad you can be satisfied while hurting me so fucking bad.