I DONT KNOW

[butmaybeicant]

i really do not know where to start when i write this entry. i thought that i wanted to be with chris, now all i find myself is thinking about sam. i am a fuck up and i do not know what the fuck to doooooooo!!!!!!!!!!! a lot of people have told me that "i cant be with the same person my whole life and i need to give others a chance", but why in the hell did i fight for so long for the one i loved to just give up. chris lives with me because he cant live at home, this means i dont think i will ever be able to figure out where i am supposed to be. chris makes me always feel guilty about everything, i feel like i dont ever do anything right. am i supposed to be this confused about life? fuck. bye.

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