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I saw the psychologist again today, it was kind of a pointless session because I was so zonked out on my new meds. They make me insanely sleepy and unable to function. I stayed at Beccas for a couple days and she got up with Aisy for me so I could sleep more and adjust to the meds. I think it's too high of a dose though. I need to be able to function and the psychiatrist told me that there shouldn't be any drowsiness after 3 days...it's been a week and I'm still a zombie. Luckily I see him tomorrow and we can adjust my dosage. I'm not taking 120 mgs tonight, I'll take 80 mgs and hope to be awake and alert in the morning. I won't have any help with Aisy so I really need to be a functional humanoid.
I'm getting excited for Sunday. It's almost like it's not real to me yet that I'm flying across the country to see Billy and my family and help drive back home. Home means different things for us now, so it's weird. I don't know.
I love Becca.
I don't know what to say aside from that but I feel like she deserves a fuck of a lot of credit right now for helping me so much. Loves her. Like whoa.
I'm still very conflicted and confused and I need to get my head on straight, but that's always been an issue.
Becca and I went and saw Darlene yesterday, it just gets sadder and sadder everytime I see her. I feel bad for her, but there's not really anything I can do. I feel really bad for her kids...and I do what I can, but it's still not a lot and I just want better. I want better for them all.
I'm done rambling now.
//.stardust
I'm getting excited for Sunday. It's almost like it's not real to me yet that I'm flying across the country to see Billy and my family and help drive back home. Home means different things for us now, so it's weird. I don't know.
I love Becca.
I don't know what to say aside from that but I feel like she deserves a fuck of a lot of credit right now for helping me so much. Loves her. Like whoa.
I'm still very conflicted and confused and I need to get my head on straight, but that's always been an issue.
Becca and I went and saw Darlene yesterday, it just gets sadder and sadder everytime I see her. I feel bad for her, but there's not really anything I can do. I feel really bad for her kids...and I do what I can, but it's still not a lot and I just want better. I want better for them all.
I'm done rambling now.
//.stardust