Unhealthy
I'm so worried and stressed right now because of all that's happening. I'm scared, right out scared! With moments of anxiety that come and go...its making a mess out of me. I know it doesn't help my health which is of most concern at the moment. The fact that I'm actually bleeding out my ass! Yes, I wouldn't lie about something like that. Its scary seeing blood when you go to the restroom, especially if you're a male. My stomach keeps bothering me and there is discomfort. This is not something I thought I would be having at my age. Right now I feel like I'm falling apart. I feel alone and scared, its not a nice feeling. What's more is that I have to wait till thursday to see my doctor, to let them know whats going on and to get a second opinion. I'm going to have to see a specialist where they're gonna place a scope inside to check further up. Believe me, it was a very uncomfortable experience for me last night when the doctor needed to check me. So I don't know how I'll fair when it comes to that scope. But what must be done, must be done, right?